I just can't appreciate anything

[Ravel]

Music was a huge part of my life. I haven't played guitar since I was 16. The fact that I have no hope for my future has done this to me. Knowing that my life will only get worse makes me discouraged. I can't enjoy a good movie, book or music anymore. Music was one of the few things that made my suffering bearable. This looks like some punishment. I wake up every day wondering "why am I still here?" I can't stand it anymore

 

[lostmyacc]

Sounds like anhedonia. Very terrible condition that many people do not know about.

 

[stoiccactus]

I certainly know this feeling, it sounds a lot like classic clinical depression to be honest. I'm hardly one to advocate for meds or lifestyle changes but there are some meds which may be able to move the needle a little bit for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not enjoy anything personally. I cannot see anything positive about being alive. To me, life is only misery and pain. I live such an empty existence, like I have already died in a way and I just try to pass the time until I fall asleep. To me, living feels extremely pointless. I also find life to be unbearable and I know that it is so awful being trapped in such a depressing existence. I'm sorry that you suffer so much.

 

[DynamicDepression]

I think I can understand how you feel. I used to love to write, but now I can't even find enjoyment in reading books. Depression takes everything from you.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Sorry to hear you feel this. I used to be a music professor, but my life caved in so I don't do that anymore. Still, music is one of the few things that can pick me up or console me. I'm sorry it's lost its appeal to you.

I agree with @lostmyacc. Anhedonia is a classic symptom of several mental health disorders. It is treatable, depending on how much faith you put in neurological pharmaceuticals and cognitive behavioral therapy. It might be worth a shot.

 

[outrider567]

Music was a huge part of my life. I haven't played guitar since I was 16. The fact that I have no hope for my future has done this to me. Knowing that my life will only get worse makes me discouraged. I can't enjoy a good movie, book or music anymore. Music was one of the few things that made my suffering bearable. This looks like some punishment. I wake up every day wondering "why am I still here?" I can't stand it anymore

That's me since January--Used to be a Soundcloud junkie last 5 years, great stuff from Europe and Russia as well as the US, so much fun---Zero listening to any music this year

 

[DerTod]

I certainly know this feeling, it sounds a lot like classic clinical depression to be honest. I'm hardly one to advocate for meds or lifestyle changes but there are some meds which may be able to move the needle a little bit for you.

What would be those meds you talk about if you don't mind sharing?