i hope this weekend will be my last

[lazyegg]

i stopped feeling anything for my family a long time ago so leaving will be easy. kinda feeling guilty on how this will affect them. i've gotten to the point in life where i no longer have drives for anything- i don't see my life continuing after the end of this month. the longer i stay here, the more i feel shame on the person that i became to be. will be spending the rest of my days by the sea.
i wonder where my soul will travel after it leaves this vessel. hopefully it bathes in the calm comfort of nothingness.

 

[day]

I'm so sorry the world has done you so wrong OP.

If you decide to or not I wish you nothing but peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best with your plans and I hope you eventually find what you search for, I very strongly believe death to be peaceful, ideal non-existence where one can finally sleep for all eternity.

 

[SVEN]

Go well, rest easy.

 

[MissionSucksAssFul]

kinda feeling guilty on how this will affect them.

sure, maybe morally speaking you should feel SOME guilt over "hurting" them, but I say they should feel at the very least the same amount of guilt for being a part of your suicide (as family always is I find)
hope this wasn't outta line, hope even more it helped a little :) good luck, frend

 

[squiggles]

i hope you find what you are looking for.
and i too am wondering where we go if not the void.
maybe the trees ?- their sway and whispers always gave me comfort

 

[lazyegg]

i hope you find what you are looking for.
and i too am wondering where we go if not the void.
maybe the trees ?- their sway and whispers always gave me comfort

i always liked trees- willow trees are pretty and carry a lot of life on them. they have a tranquil nature to them. i hope the tree would be far away from humans so that it grows unharmed.
if not trees, a kind being that nurtures animals. like a forest fairy or elf. its nice living in solitude.
i dont mind being a funky mushroom at all if such options arent viable. theyre kinda weird but i like how outerworldly they are.

sure, maybe morally speaking you should feel SOME guilt over "hurting" them, but I say they should feel at the very least the same amount of guilt for being a part of your suicide (as family always is I find)
hope this wasn't outta line, hope even more it helped a little :) good luck, frend

dont worry it wasnt out of the line at all. i grew up with a narcissistic/abusive/paranoid father figure and that broke me a lot. because of that, i feel emotionally shut off from my family and people. my upbringing was abnormal which i couldnt recover from. physical/psychological abuse sucks.

i was a intelligent child with a lot of potential growing up. but after being used by my father i never grew up to that potential. i never became "myself".

from my experiences, i would wish it on no one ever.

 

[MissionSucksAssFul]

i always liked trees- willow trees are pretty and carry a lot of life on them. they have a tranquil nature to them. i hope the tree would be far away from humans so that it grows unharmed.
if not trees, a kind being that nurtures animals. like a forest fairy or elf. its nice living in solitude.
i dont mind being a funky mushroom at all if such options arent viable. theyre kinda weird but i like how outerworldly they are.

fun fact: mushrooms (or fungal life if you want to get technical xD) were the first form of life outside of the oceans! apparently they looked like 12 feet tall obelisks and forests like that covered basically all of the earths surface :)

dont worry it wasnt out of the line at all. i grew up with a narcissistic/abusive/paranoid father figure and that broke me a lot. because of that, i feel emotionally shut off from my family and people. my upbringing was abnormal which i couldnt recover from. physical/psychological abuse sucks.

i was a intelligent child with a lot of potential growing up. but after being used by my father i never grew up to that potential. i never became "myself".

from my experiences, i would wish it on no one ever.

wow... this sounds awfully familiar :/ all u need to do is replace "father" with "brother" and you get my reason for being here... I hope he has no more hold on your life!

 

[strawberrynymph]

I hope you're able to find peace I also want to spend my remaining days by the sea when the time comes so I think it's beautiful you get to do that