I hope I can die tonight

[miseryismybsf]

Partial Hanging would be my way to go.

All I need is that impulsive reaction.

I have many many reasons to die, body dysmorphia being the worst of it.

And today I'll get my school exam results, and I know I've failed, and when my parents will get to know about it, they'll be mad. And I hope their words bring me that impulse to hang myself.

Even though exams were never a reason for me to end my life, I've bigger problems in my life than this.

But if I get successful tonight everyone will think it's because of my exam, but it's not.

99.99% chance I'll survive cuz I've already tried to hang myself more than 4 times. I'm just a loser even when it comes to end my life.

I envy people who has a normal life, has friends, can talk with people. Why I couldn't be like one of them.

And why I couldn't be like one of those brave people who successfully ended their lives, it takes so much courage to ctb I wish I was brave like them.

I am a fucking loser.

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry that you are feeling so bad, however you decide, I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[itsgone2]

99.99% chance I'll survive cuz I've already tried to hang myself more than 4 times. I'm just a loser even when it comes to end my life.

I envy people who has a normal life, has friends, can talk with people. Why I couldn't be like one of them.

Exactly how I feel too.

 

[eternalpace]

99.99% chance I'll survive cuz I've already tried to hang myself more than 4 times. I'm just a loser even when it comes to end my life.

Failing at partial hanging has nothing to do with being a loser. It's not the easy method that some folks make it out to be. It was my method of choice ten years ago, and I obviously failed at it. Problems with the type of rope, difficulties in getting it positioned correctly, my body's suicidal instinct, etc. all worked against me.