Venting i have to wait

[bluegodism]

firstly, i have to wait for logistical reasons. i live with my family and I will only be able to store SN in a safe place in the middle of january. and a friend asked for my CTB to be held after his birthday, february 13th.

i do not wanna wait. i've been waiting for this for MONTHS and i thought it would happen in december but it will not happen.

i just want to die soon without having to wait. i do not wanna wait. i'm already getting paranoid thinking about what i'll do if SN is banned from my country.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's certainly understandable just wishing to be gone, to me it's so cruel and horrible how other people wish to remove the option of SN, I hate how we cannot just have the option to easily die in peace when we wish to. But anyway best wishes.