Venting I have to do it

[riddlerenjoyer]

I'm 20, hopeless. I can't function, can't go to college, can't work. I'm just a financial burden on my family. I've accepted i have to. I'm just too scared and sn is hard to get. I don't want to put the people i love trough this but this isn't living. I don't have health insurance so i can't even go to a hospital (i doubt it would help). I know my family is disappointed. I am a failure. All of my friends are well off, continuing with their lives while I've been paralyzed for two years. I can't keep putting my family trough this. Every day is suffering. I feel like they'd be better off without me. I am an awful, selfish person for putting everyone i love trough misery. I have chronic conditions that aren't going away. I'm in constant pain. I just hope i'l have the balls to actually go trough with it soon. I am a coward

 

[DevonBostick'sAss]

You are not a failure. You are facing challenges that many people would struggle with, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. Taking small steps, even if they seem insignificant, can help you regain a sense of control over your life. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. It takes courage to open up about what you're going through, and I want you to know that you're not alone in this. Im also 20 we can talk if you want <<33

 

[riddlerenjoyer]

You are not a failure. You are facing challenges that many people would struggle with, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. Taking small steps, even if they seem insignificant, can help you regain a sense of control over your life. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. It takes courage to open up about what you're going through, and I want you to know that you're not alone in this. Im also 20 we can talk if you want <<33

I'm most likely having a bpd crash out but it's so difficult to live like this

 

[Sbetto]

I'm 20, hopeless. I can't function, can't go to college, can't work. I'm just a financial burden on my family. I've accepted i have to. I'm just too scared and sn is hard to get. I don't want to put the people i love trough this but this isn't living. I don't have health insurance so i can't even go to a hospital (i doubt it would help). I know my family is disappointed. I am a failure. All of my friends are well off, continuing with their lives while I've been paralyzed for two years. I can't keep putting my family trough this. Every day is suffering. I feel like they'd be better off without me. I am an awful, selfish person for putting everyone i love trough misery. I have chronic conditions that aren't going away. I'm in constant pain. I just hope i'l have the balls to actually go trough with it soon. I am a coward

We're in the same situation, except that I'm 25 years old. I recently started a study program, but I'm not sure if it's really what I want to do in life. The exam session is approaching, and I don't feel ready to face it at all. At the moment, I smoke about two joints a day and I'm not studying at all. Almost all of my friends have graduated, are in relationships, and will probably get married and start a family soon. I don't have a job and I've never worked. I feel like nothing more than a financial burden on my mother. I have SN, but I still don't know when to use it. I feel like a complete failure.

 

[riddlerenjoyer]

We're in the same situation, except that I'm 25 years old. I recently started a study program, but I'm not sure if it's really what I want to do in life. The exam session is approaching, and I don't feel ready to face it at all. At the moment, I smoke about two joints a day and I'm not studying at all. Almost all of my friends have graduated, are in relationships, and will probably get married and start a family soon. I don't have a job and I've never worked. I feel like nothing more than a financial burden on my mother. I have SN, but I still don't know when to use it. I feel like a complete failure.

I get what u feel.. i hope things get better for the both of us ://