Venting I have successfully and intentionally ruined my life

[lavenderlilylies]

ironically the life i have tons of threads complaining and whining about was entirely my fault. I was a stupid sad teenager in middle school, i was mad at everything and everyone especially my parents. And my way of acting up was being a bitch to my friends and self isolating. I distinctly remember nights where I laid in bed filled with rage thinking "i'll stop speaking unless spoken to, I won't leave the house, i will never laugh or smile or engage in conversation again" I thought i was failing back then and i got mad at myself for that too. But it actually worked, currently I'm annoyingly quiet with zero social skills zero friends and my family is SURPRISED when i go out. Wow. What an amazing accomplishment idiot