I have so much anger inside of me

[tryingmybest]

Does anyone else feel angry all the time? I feel so angry I can't even put it in words. I opened up to my mother about my feelings and she tried her best to sympathise with me. I appreciate her so much, but at the same time I was so angry at her. I had a messed up childhood and I have so much resentment to her even though it wasn't her fault. I feel like if she did things better, I would be better. Or maybe I'm just blaming her for my mistakes which makes me a bad person. I can't understand why I'm like this or why I feel the way I do, but one moment i'm fine, the next my heart is pounding and I feel like screaming. It's like i'm constantly a mix of angry and sad and I don't know what to do.

 

[heLLishLandscape]

yes, i understand you completely. it's like eating you up inside but it has no where to go. your childhood background resonates with me as well, so i feel that pain too. if you ever need someone to talk to, i'm here (:

 

[YourAverageLurker]

I used to struggle with homicidal thoughts a few years prior; thinking of ways to do the most damage to humanity and in turn myself. Needless to say I was a pretty angry individual but I'm going to assume our reasons aren't the same. Anger stems from various factors and you may need to do a bit of soul-searching to find yours. You definitely aren't a bad person because you are self aware that you have admittedly made mistakes. I wish you luck in coping with your anger and whatever the reason may be, I hope you can heal from it.

 

[SilentSadness]

I also sometimes feel angry, it's normal to be angry at a disgusting world filled with disgusting people but I've had to endure this torment for so long that I don't feel much anymore.

 

[tryingmybest]

yes, i understand you completely. it's like eating you up inside but it has no where to go. your childhood background resonates with me as well, so i feel that pain too. if you ever need someone to talk to, i'm here (:

thank you, so am I

 

[bloop714]

I understand, happens with me sometimes too. Like even if someone talks like not that nicely but still normally I don't know why I get so angry when I don't have right to, I just break whatever is in my hand(mostly pen caps suffer), or take out paint from wall or just pick skin around nails, or when I share anything which bothers me with my mother and after sometime I start feeling angry about telling her without any reason and do same things, I used to shout at her sometimes but somehow I don't do it anymore.

 

[darkangel44]

Hey, being angry is totally okay. Text me if you want to talk about it tho, or if you just want to give it all out.

 

[pharma]

yes i totally get it. i have anger issues too; i think it comes from a place of helplessness and the need to lash out and let it all out. being angry doesn't make you a bad person, i feel like its a normal emotion that has been villainised and misunderstood

 

[earshurt]

I feel it. You spend so long disempowered and weak, that you become resentful and start feeling the compulsion to lash out.

You're not a bad person for struggling with these intrusive thoughts, OP. Your thoughts do not define you, only your actions.

 

[OceanBlue]

I'm angry most of the time, the world is full of injustice and I'm trapped here against my will. It probably stems from helplessness - I can't change much. Just thinking of how many slaughterhouses are still in operation makes me want to lash out. If I were socialized as a man, I'd probably be picking random fights in bars, would be nice in some way.