People here often recommend SN, and according to common research, the most common result is usually a humane death.
After some contemplating and a few shitty life-changing events later, I decided to give it a go. However, I'm not too keen on how things will go, as suicide STILL involves death, and I'm obviously afraid; I also do not know what SN tastes like, should I add flavored juice to dampen the presumed bitterness?
Straight to the point. I want to know how I would tackle this. Do I go to bed right after drinking the SN concoction? What would you have me do before drinking the loaded liquid? What do I expect after?
I kinda have things planned out already for me. I've chosen a "farewell song" to listen to right before or during my euthanasia. I have no last meal planned out yet. Whatever else I wanna do, I wanna make sure it's done to clear myself of personal debt. I also occasionally question if I should announce my bus ticket on my personal socials.
The last time I did (or at least tried to do) that was when I contemplated jumping off a nearby bridge because no other methods were available to me at the time; my parents stopped me, saying they care, but dropped the act a few days after, accusing me of holding myself hostage.
I've had enough at this point. I just feel that there's only one way it ends; either I suffer in reality, or instantly end everything in death. They always want me to pick the former option, but nah.
Now, SN. Preparations. Effects. What should I expect?
P.S. The SN container arrives in 4-20 days; I hope it arrives sooner than later, due to a rising increase on external control over my life.
After some contemplating and a few shitty life-changing events later, I decided to give it a go. However, I'm not too keen on how things will go, as suicide STILL involves death, and I'm obviously afraid; I also do not know what SN tastes like, should I add flavored juice to dampen the presumed bitterness?
Straight to the point. I want to know how I would tackle this. Do I go to bed right after drinking the SN concoction? What would you have me do before drinking the loaded liquid? What do I expect after?
I kinda have things planned out already for me. I've chosen a "farewell song" to listen to right before or during my euthanasia. I have no last meal planned out yet. Whatever else I wanna do, I wanna make sure it's done to clear myself of personal debt. I also occasionally question if I should announce my bus ticket on my personal socials.
The last time I did (or at least tried to do) that was when I contemplated jumping off a nearby bridge because no other methods were available to me at the time; my parents stopped me, saying they care, but dropped the act a few days after, accusing me of holding myself hostage.
I've had enough at this point. I just feel that there's only one way it ends; either I suffer in reality, or instantly end everything in death. They always want me to pick the former option, but nah.
Now, SN. Preparations. Effects. What should I expect?
P.S. The SN container arrives in 4-20 days; I hope it arrives sooner than later, due to a rising increase on external control over my life.
