i have never made a good habit

[mossmoth]

i don't understand how it works. i do not have anything scheduled or controlled in my life. i sleep at random times, i wake at random times, i study, draw, watch tv at random times. i brush my teeth and shower randomly. anything is done whenever i've scrounged up the energy to do it. i don't understand how people do it. wake up at the same time everyday, eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner, go to scheduled events. there's no structure in my life. i would join the military to force it but it's now illegal for me to do so (transgender in medical history)