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searchingforpeace

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Nov 26, 2022
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My mental health has taken a dramatic decline. I've been suffering with mental health problems for 30 years to no avail into physical disability for 10 years. I'm completely alone My girlfriend left me for no reason 6 months ago blamed everything on me Was an alcoholic narcissist in retrospect but seemed nice. I hate her with every fiber of my being. She took away the little hope I had left. Every day I want to take the SN I have but I'm too much of a coward and I invent reasons why shouldn like what if I spill it on something and it damages a surface and I survive? I swear to God I'm crazy. I feel nothing but fear and torment and loneliness. Everyone that meant anything to me in my life is already dead or has abandoned me. I have no idea what to do I feel like I'm going to end up taking the SN impulsively I hate my life and I just want it to end I tried everything to save myself Nothing worked What this girl did to me was **** insane. Just like everyone else in this life the they do nothing but betray you she said the reason she left me was because I'm not happy when she is an alcoholic? Talk about a **** hypocrite I want to get revenge on this woman so bad but it will only make me feel worse so I am powerless completely PA I feel trapped I have nowhere to run to If I go to the hospital it will just make it worse No one seems to care and no one seems to understand
I'm literally so obsessive compulsive that I'm afraid of which socks to wear that they have to be a certain package and a certain type. That's how you know you lost your mind. It was bound to happen when I struggled to walk for 10 years nobody really has any idea what's going on other than some back problems and some **** called functional neurological disorder
I can't believe I was so stupid to trust a woman again. It's like Groundhog Day all three relationships I had they're good for a year or two and then they completely betrayed me once actually in love with them.
 
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finnthebird

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Jul 14, 2026
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Hope you find peace m8, some good will come eventually if you wait patiently and seek to do something good and that will make you happy, not just fleeting vague yay, a true happy moment where you can laugh genuinely at least once and smile, even if it's brief, helps you forget in those few moments. :]
 
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