let.me.let.go87
Meh
- Jul 12, 2024
- 300
I only talk to only friend left now. And my husband obviously we live together. I cut off my other best friend last year and I basically just stepped away from all my church friends. I'm almost ready. My chronic pain is getting worse and my depression is back. My panic attacks are worse and I don't think I can take it anymore. With the deportations here and my husband facing deportation any day I'm bracing myself for him to be deported and when he is I'm going to kill myself maybe even before because I just can't take it anymore. I'm trying to wait until he is tho because I don't want hurt him. Trump has only been President for 100 days though and he has another three and 2/3 years to be president and he's talking about running for a third term which is unconstitutional but I wouldn't put it past this idiot. I won't survive much less have a place to live without my husband so when the time comes I'll do it. I've not been letting on at any psych appointments that I have any intentions. I want them to think I'm doing better so they won't lock me up as soon as it happens. Because if I was them I would. And before anyone says any dumb shit My husband was brought here against his will when he was 18 months old and he doesn't have his papers because his father was an alcoholic. We've been trying to get his papers but I'm mentally ill and physically disabled and it's just not that easy I don't have the know-how. And I don't have the money to pay anyone to help me. I can't live without him but I don't know how to fight this shit. Instead of the country trying to help people they're just throwing people away like garbage
