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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Digital Diary🦋
Dec 26, 2024
339
I hate waking up every single time. All I want to do is sleep. I was having the most beautiful, peaceful rest this morning and good dreams, then I had to wake up. It feels like you're being ripped away from a peaceful place and forced back into this. I don't belong here, I'm tired of existing in this human body. I'm tired of talking, I don't like waking up, I don't like this reality, just let me rest forever!
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
Every night I go to bed hoping that it's my last, that I'll never have to wake up again.
 
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Mitch3ll

Mitch3ll

Member
Jul 4, 2024
18
I hate waking up as well. I go to bed every night hoping I don't wake up. My dreams are way more fun than my waking day.
The Canadian medical system doesn't want to help though.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
I feel you, if only reality could be made up of our dreams. Sending hugs and love
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
I hate waking up to this reality every day. As soon as I open my eyes, the pain hits me even harder, making the act of getting out of bed feel like the hardest part of my day. Each morning, I'm deeply disappointed to find myself facing another day of misery. I long to drift away in my sleep, as I've forgotten what it feels like to experience a truly good day.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Same , I wish I was in my dreams more so then in reality.
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,512
Same.
Everytime I say that I wish to fall asleep and never wake up. I mean it.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,003
I really understand as I just want to rest as well, all I wish for is permanent peace from this futile, torturous existence, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence I never would have wished for in the first place, I find it so undesirable to exist in every way and I also see myself as not meant for any of this. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you search for.
 
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Alexsei

Alexsei

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Feb 8, 2025
31
I get you. I've been praying that God take me away in my sleep the past few nights.
 
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