I hate that I am gay and feminine.

[Parnate]

I am closeted gay and was and still am very feminine.
I was bullied a lot for being effeminate. Still a friend or person whom I consider friend occasionally calls me transgender, which here in India is an insult. He does that to other people too.
A roommate sometimes makes fun of my effeminate mannerisms.
Social media only worsens it since i follow these muscular and masculine men whom i both like and admire.
I hate that god made me this way, he could have made me a woman or man not just physically but completely. Also I can't come out to my parents even though I want to.
Sad

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I am closeted gay and was and still am very feminine.
I was bullied a lot for being effeminate. Still a friend or person whom I consider friend occasionally calls me transgender, which here in India is an insult. He does that to other people too.
A roommate sometimes makes fun of my effeminate mannerisms.
Social media only worsens it since i follow these muscular and masculine men whom i both like and admire.
I hate that god made me this way, he could have made me a woman or man not just physically but completely. Also I can't come out to my parents even though I want to.
Sad

The best advice I can give you is to get out into the community. You may have bigoted family or something, but once you get out into the community you will see their is family there that will accept you.

It is scary for us all at first but I promise will be something you will look back on without regret. If anything you'll regret not doing it sooner.

 

[rainy.tears]

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I also grew up being teased for being effeminate (as a gay guy) and hating myself for it. I didn't want to be camp, I wanted to masculine. I thought it was unattractive and disgusting.

Later in life I was really lucky to be surrounded by people who showed me that being feminine is a good thing, and that toxic masculinity is actually a trap that doesn't make people happy. I've been able to grow to love the way I am and now I wouldn't change it for the world.

I know I was able to go through these changes because I found myself in an environment where being feminine was seen as a good thing and I didn't get hate for being the way I was. I really hope that one day you'll be able to find friends who also see the world that way, and who love you for who you are and the way you are. I promise that who you are is beautiful and wonderful and you have so much to give the world.

I'm so sorry that the people around you don't see that.

 

[RadiantNumber]

There is nothing wrong with that