I hate people

[chudeatte]

I really do hate everyone I meet or interact with in person. online it's different, less intimate, so im ok. but I despise everyone I face every day. I told my nan id go to dinner for her birthday next week just to be nice. most of my siblings will be there too. I can't stand any of them though. not a raging hatred kind of feeling, but more so that I just can't handle being around people in general and I hate eating out because im picky and that creates problems. I dont even have an appetite anymore so it's pointless for me to go if im not going to eat. I dont want to sit in a room full of people I feel so alien from, being quiet and not talking to anyone or giving awkward responses if I do get spoken to like usual. every single time I come home from seeing family I break down in my room beating myself up over what an idiot I am and I cut myself. there's a train track near the restaurant, I might just lie down on it before I have to go lol. I dont see the point anymore. even thinking of going makes me sick to my stomach I can't stand being around people. not strangers, not family, not friends (even though I have none), no one. im such a loser outsider freak fml

 

[HangMan123]

I really do hate everyone I meet or interact with in person. online it's different, less intimate, so im ok. but I despise everyone I face every day. I told my nan id go to dinner for her birthday next week just to be nice. most of my siblings will be there too. I can't stand any of them though. not a raging hatred kind of feeling, but more so that I just can't handle being around people in general and I hate eating out because im picky and that creates problems. I dont even have an appetite anymore so it's pointless for me to go if im not going to eat. I dont want to sit in a room full of people I feel so alien from, being quiet and not talking to anyone or giving awkward responses if I do get spoken to like usual. every single time I come home from seeing family I break down in my room beating myself up over what an idiot I am and I cut myself. there's a train track near the restaurant, I might just lie down on it before I have to go lol. I dont see the point anymore. even thinking of going makes me sick to my stomach I can't stand being around people. not strangers, not family, not friends (even though I have none), no one. im such a loser outsider freak fml

Heh…we're loser outsider freaks together .
For real though, I know how you feel. I can't even communicate online well . I'm also afraid around my family and friendless—we've got a lot in common. At Thanksgiving all I did was try to hide away from people and gave awkward, taciturn responses when I was talked to. I also hate my siblings—one much more than the other. So I get it. Actually it's kinda eerie—like you're my clone .
I'd say something encouraging, but honestly idk what to do either…
Regardless, I hope you're okay for the time being.

 

[chudeatte]

Heh…we're loser outside freaks together .
For real though, I know how you feel. I can't even communicate online well . I'm also afraid around my family and friendless—we've got a lot in common. At Thanksgiving all I did was try to hide away from people and gave awkward, taciturn responses when I was talked to. I also hate my siblings—one much more than the other. So I get it. Actually it's kinda eerie—like you're my clone .
I'd say something encouraging, but honestly idk what to do either…
Regardless, I hope you're okay for the time being.

I suppose it's comforting to know someone is like me. we do sound pretty similar, although ive got so many issues im too embarrassed to even say on here so idk. ive always thought that people who claimed to be antisocial weren't that bad, like I was such a severe case because of everything I deal with thats so much worse than the usual. I feel like if there have been people like me, they've killed themselves already. but I mean here I am on this website so maybe im next lol. I appreciate the comment I hope you're doing okay too your words mean a lot

 

[HangMan123]

I suppose it's comforting to know someone is like me. we do sound pretty similar, although ive got so many issues im too embarrassed to even say on here so idk. ive always thought that people who claimed to be antisocial weren't that bad, like I was such a severe case because of everything I deal with thats so much worse than the usual. I feel like if there have been people like me, they've killed themselves already. but I mean here I am on this website so maybe im next lol. I appreciate the comment I hope you're doing okay too your words mean a lot

The way that I always think the same thing . I'm glad I was somewhat-comforting and also you're pretty funny! Good luck!