Venting I hate people

[MiMif]

I really really truly despise people. I hate being around them, I hate communicating with them and I hate it when they look at me. That being said I don't necessarily wish harm on people I just want nothing to do with them.

They never fail to make me feel like shit, they always can't help but point out how different I am from them and I can't stand it. When I feel pretty and go outside and others look at me I feel self conscious and I hide my face I can't stand being around other people.

This mostly applies to those close to me but also complete strangers I just really can't stand it. I hate how fake everyone is I truly do I hate everything about people.

The only people I don't despise are the ones I know nothing about and have no hopes of seeing in person (celebrities). But if I ever saw them in front of me I'm sure I'd hate them too.

 

[DesperateOne]

Yup, society is all a show on a giant stage called the world. Everyone is pretending and nobody is themselves. People project that shit onto you because they are either miserable themselves or because they get insecure since you don't fit into their cookie cutter definition of a human being.

 

[Mirrory Me]

Imho, those are more about about your own insecurities rather then others expectations of you, I have that habbit too, thinking what others would think of me- even if everyone are mostly wondering about themselves.

 

[MiMif]

Imho, those are more about about your own insecurities rather then others expectations of you, I have that habbit too, thinking what others would think of me- even if everyone are mostly wondering about themselves.

Well you're right...however some people go out of their way to tell me how different I am. Like straight up tell me that and it's annoying.

I've stopped caring what others think at this point and when I'm in society I'm just as fake as everyone else

 

[Meteora]

Can relate very much. I dont know what the solution is, unfortunately. But yes, most people are very annoying and make one feel bad.

 

[breezeboy]

Yep. I can barely stand to use this site anymore.
It's becoming just like everywhere else.

 

[Meteora]

Imho, those are more about about your own insecurities rather then others expectations of you, I have that habbit too, thinking what others would think of me- even if everyone are mostly wondering about themselves.

Maybe MiMif is just a thuthful person and everybody else is so maniuplative already.... either we play the game or we get left out. I d rather be alone than playing these stupid ego games most ppl play. It s not smart, it s not real and it sooner or later causes them problems, too

Yep. I can barely stand to use this site anymore.
It's becoming just like everywhere else.

Think I can understand what you mean........ I sometimes wonder why users here dont treat people the way they themselves would wish to be treated... makes no sense.


Sorry for my flawed English, hope you guys get what I mean more or less.

 

[underthedatetree]

I spent so much time worrying about how to catch up to my peers or how I was going to return to a functioning life with normal people in a normal society
it was all pointless. it was all wasted time I should have spent with my loved ones.

 

[Labyrinth]

No one really knows you and conversations with others are always superfluous and banal. Given this, did you suffer emotional abuse to trigger this behavior? The fear of being judged is common in the "hikikomori" club.

I also have extreme discomfort when people watch me or I make eye contact.

 

[Mirrory Me]

No one really knows you and conversations with others are always superfluous and banal. Given this, did you suffer emotional abuse to trigger this behavior? The fear of being judged is common in the "hikikomori" club.

I also have extreme discomfort when people watch me or I make eye contact.

It may calm your nerves if someone openly loves or accepts you as you are, although avoiding eye contact can be a natural habbit, e.g. for autistic people.

 

[1sadtran]

being known is horrible
its better to have nobody know who you are

 

[DecisionToLeave]

I hate everybody, including myself

 

[Sivit]

I dont have the strenght to hate.
Hate is a strong word and I don't have the power to do so.
I do lack a lot of empathy when it comes to others however.