I hate myself

[Ashe]

Say my name.
Feel my pain.
Break me down.
I'm gonna drown.
Being smothered from you.
You see me cry.
And wonder why.
Dear child, god loves you.
Well I hate myself.
My time is running out.
I'm negatively charged.
I just wanna die.
I'm letting you know.
I just wanna go.
Stop with your selfish pleads.
Don't say that you're sorry.
Don't say that it's nothing.
Cause I feel nothing.
I know it's nothing.
I cut myself.
Just to feel nothing.
I'm so dead inside.
My time has run out.
I'm haunted by the past.
The reaper is my only friend.
But I'm ashamed.
They tell me there's another way.
But never give any solution.
Just figure it out.
All my life.
I just wanted to smile.
To feel that happiness.
Because it's what everyone else wants.
But I just can't.
My soul is exhausted.
So I'm gonna walk away.
Disappear from it all.
Cease to exist.
Everynight night.
I just wanted to know.
What I could've done better.
I was supposed to grow up happy.
I was supposed to have their love.
I gave them my heart.
Then they stabbed it to shreds.
Don't say that it gets better.
You haven't lived in my shoes.
Everyday is a torture.
I've grown so far apart.
It hurts.
It just hurts to breathe.
They didn't care.
Leaving me so scared.
Well good job I hate myself.
I feel like a stranger in the mirror.
My next cut.
Goes a little deeper.
Let this river flow.
Hoping that it takes me.
To a place I can call home.
Can you feel my soul.
Can you feel my soul...
Can you feel my soul......
Please god tell you feel my soul.
Tell me why I was made so broken.
Please smile when you bury me.
Just don't say that I was ever okay.