I hate myself & want to hurt myself sm

[lkjhgfdsa1]

I hate myself so much if I had a gun I'd shoot myself I really want to hurt myself so badly

When I take a walk, I look at the trees thinking I could hang myself there
When I see a bridge or apartment buildings, I wonder how to get to the top and whether I would die if I'd jump from there
When I see a knife, I think about stabbing myself
When I see a car, I want to jump in front of it
When I'm at the train tracks, I wonder if I'd cripple myself

My thoughts are like this the entire day. It is too difficult.

I hate fucking everything
I don't want to fall down any more than I already have right now

 

[world is unfair]

Same

 

[lostintheloop]

I'm so sorry. I can really relate and I know it's so exhausting

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

Same here, all day every day, really stressfull and exhausting

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I don't know what's worse, worrying about how to end it or imagining sticking around.