I hate myself for good reason

[BittersweetSymphony]

I hate myself because I know myself. And I know there's nothing good about me. I'm rotten to the core. I post on this forum from time to time, and I usually try to present myself as a fellow sufferer who wants to help others go a different path than I did. But that's not the truth. The truth is that I would gladly allow you all to suffer if it allowed me to be happy. When I try to uplift people here, it's only because I know what a joke I am, and it gives me a sense of purpose to think I might be helping. But make no mistake about it: if the devil showed up at my door tomorrow morning and offered me a happy life in exchange for your continued eternal suffering, I would take it in a second. I wouldn't just take it. I would dance on your coffins in celebration. And that makes me sad.

I have no business being on this forum. I have no business being in this world. I'm a no good piece of shit who would be the obvious villain in any TV show you ever watched. I'm a coward. But even worse than that, I'm a coward who is utterly indifferent to anyone's suffering but my own. A normal coward might find redemption by suddenly finding courage when someone he cared about was threatened. I'm the piece of shit villain who refuses to admit he was wrong even as the hero holds a dagger to his throat and tells him to confess.

I'm weak, I'm pathetic, and most of all, I'm not your friend. I'm the snake that you should have smashed with a shovel years ago.

 

[przeciwwymiotne]

I hate myself because I know myself. And I know there's nothing good about me. I'm rotten to the core. I post on this forum from time to time, and I usually try to present myself as a fellow sufferer who wants to help others go a different path than I did. But that's not the truth. The truth is that I would gladly allow you all to suffer if it allowed me to be happy. When I try to uplift people here, it's only because I know what a joke I am, and it gives me a sense of purpose to think I might be helping. But make no mistake about it: if the devil showed up at my door tomorrow morning and offered me a happy life in exchange for your continued eternal suffering, I would take it in a second. I wouldn't just take it. I would dance on your coffins in celebration. And that makes me sad.

I have no business being on this forum. I have no business being in this world. I'm a no good piece of shit who would be the obvious villain in any TV show you ever watched. I'm a coward. But even worse than that, I'm a coward who is utterly indifferent to anyone's suffering but my own. A normal coward might find redemption by suddenly finding courage when someone he cared about was threatened. I'm the piece of shit villain who refuses to admit he was wrong even as the hero holds a dagger to his throat and tells him to confess.

I'm weak, I'm pathetic, and most of all, I'm not your friend. I'm the snake that you should have smashed with a shovel years ago.

Me too

 

[Hollowillow]

I hate myself because I know myself. And I know there's nothing good about me. I'm rotten to the core. I post on this forum from time to time, and I usually try to present myself as a fellow sufferer who wants to help others go a different path than I did. But that's not the truth. The truth is that I would gladly allow you all to suffer if it allowed me to be happy. When I try to uplift people here, it's only because I know what a joke I am, and it gives me a sense of purpose to think I might be helping. But make no mistake about it: if the devil showed up at my door tomorrow morning and offered me a happy life in exchange for your continued eternal suffering, I would take it in a second. I wouldn't just take it. I would dance on your coffins in celebration. And that makes me sad.

I have no business being on this forum. I have no business being in this world. I'm a no good piece of shit who would be the obvious villain in any TV show you ever watched. I'm a coward. But even worse than that, I'm a coward who is utterly indifferent to anyone's suffering but my own. A normal coward might find redemption by suddenly finding courage when someone he cared about was threatened. I'm the piece of shit villain who refuses to admit he was wrong even as the hero holds a dagger to his throat and tells him to confess.

I'm weak, I'm pathetic, and most of all, I'm not your friend. I'm the snake that you should have smashed with a shovel years ago.

HAHAHA! This is why I'm here. Super honesty.

Friend, I think we all would do pacts with the devil at this point. I made a thread saying that I wanted to kill everyone & asked how they'd like to be murdered.

I think you care more than most. Narcs would NEVER admit a flaw.

You're one of us.

 

[summers]

if the devil showed up at my door tomorrow morning and offered me a happy life in exchange for your continued eternal suffering, I would take it in a second.

Funny enough, I'm an atheist, but in a moment of desperation, I begged the devil for help. Someone I loved dearly had pneumonia, and there was a chance she would die. One night, she was sleeping, and I was laying next to her awake to make sure she wouldn't stop breathing. I told the devil he could have my soul, and even make me suffer on earth as long as she lived. She's alive and fine two years later. If I ever do have to pay, it was worth it.

Moral of the story, if you want something, you're better off going to the devil. God doesn't give a fuck about anyone or anything.

 

[jodes2]

Well, fuck you then :) nah just kidding. Look, were all selfish to some degree. Thanks for helping out on the forum :)

 

[Hollowillow]

I told the devil he could have my soul, and even make me suffer on earth as long as she lived. She's alive and fine two years later. If I ever do have to pay, it was worth it.

Sounds like your payment is to live. Stay with her? If it's someone that you can marry, why not do it? None if my ex loved me that way. It'd be sad to go & leave her unless you really had to.

 

[jitendrabagaria786@]

I hate myself because I know myself. And I know there's nothing good about me. I'm rotten to the core. I post on this forum from time to time, and I usually try to present myself as a fellow sufferer who wants to help others go a different path than I did. But that's not the truth. The truth is that I would gladly allow you all to suffer if it allowed me to be happy. When I try to uplift people here, it's only because I know what a joke I am, and it gives me a sense of purpose to think I might be helping. But make no mistake about it: if the devil showed up at my door tomorrow morning and offered me a happy life in exchange for your continued eternal suffering, I would take it in a second. I wouldn't just take it. I would dance on your coffins in celebration. And that makes me sad.

I have no business being on this forum. I have no business being in this world. I'm a no good piece of shit who would be the obvious villain in any TV show you ever watched. I'm a coward. But even worse than that, I'm a coward who is utterly indifferent to anyone's suffering but my own. A normal coward might find redemption by suddenly finding courage when someone he cared about was threatened. I'm the piece of shit villain who refuses to admit he was wrong even as the hero holds a dagger to his throat and tells him to confess.

I'm weak, I'm pathetic, and most of all, I'm not your friend. I'm the snake that you should have smashed with a shovel years ago.

Lol same.

 

[summers]

Sounds like your payment is to live. Stay with her? If it's someone that you can marry, why not do it? None if my ex loved me that way. It'd be sad to go & leave her unless you really had to.

We broke up a couple months after that. She's someone I will always love, but we don't work as a couple.

 

[Idontmatter]

I can relate. I hate everything about myself. My looks especially. I feel stupid all the time and I'm so introverted I don't make friends easily. I can't even ctb right because I keep postponing. It's going to happen though because I just want to die right now. I think my husband stays with me more for convenience since I pay the bills. I'm 45 and I don't want to make it to 46.

 

[old red eyes]

I hate myself because I know myself. And I know there's nothing good about me. I'm rotten to the core. I post on this forum from time to time, and I usually try to present myself as a fellow sufferer who wants to help others go a different path than I did. But that's not the truth. The truth is that I would gladly allow you all to suffer if it allowed me to be happy. When I try to uplift people here, it's only because I know what a joke I am, and it gives me a sense of purpose to think I might be helping. But make no mistake about it: if the devil showed up at my door tomorrow morning and offered me a happy life in exchange for your continued eternal suffering, I would take it in a second. I wouldn't just take it. I would dance on your coffins in celebration. And that makes me sad.

I have no business being on this forum. I have no business being in this world. I'm a no good piece of shit who would be the obvious villain in any TV show you ever watched. I'm a coward. But even worse than that, I'm a coward who is utterly indifferent to anyone's suffering but my own. A normal coward might find redemption by suddenly finding courage when someone he cared about was threatened. I'm the piece of shit villain who refuses to admit he was wrong even as the hero holds a dagger to his throat and tells him to confess.

I'm weak, I'm pathetic, and most of all, I'm not your friend. I'm the snake that you should have smashed with a shovel years ago.

Trust me , I will trump you for evil.....

HAHAHA! This is why I'm here. Super honesty.

Friend, I think we all would do pacts with the devil at this point. I made a thread saying that I wanted to kill everyone & asked how they'd like to be murdered.

I think you care more than most. Narcs would NEVER admit a flaw.

You're one of us.

i need a murderer !

 

[Hollowillow]

We broke up a couple months after that. She's someone I will always love, but we don't work as a couple.

Aww... Sounds like the girl in hercules movie. She saved her lover's life but he dumped her for another. If yours was a mutual agreement maybe it was less crushing. The woman never loved again until hercules got her out of hell at the peril of his own life. So sweet. Nice cartoon movie. I liked Hades' flaming hairs, but he'd beat the shit out of me with his anger issues.

I don't function as a couple or at all

I can relate. I hate everything about myself. My looks especially. I feel stupid all the time and I'm so introverted I don't make friends easily. I can't even ctb right because I keep postponing. It's going to happen though because I just want to die right now. I think my husband stays with me more for convenience since I pay the bills. I'm 45 and I don't want to make it to 46.

You seem inteligent to me. Postponing is a choice not a failure. Sounds like a regular marriage? With reversed gender roles?

Trust me , I will trump you for evil.....

i need a murderer !

Describe your trumping evil? I need a murderer too! Double homicide? High five? Let's do a homicide orgy. With knives instead of dildos.

 

[thebunny]

I'm the piece of shit villain who refuses to admit he was wrong even as the hero holds a dagger to his throat and tells him to confess. I'm weak, I'm pathetic, and most of all, I'm not your friend. I'm the snake that you should have smashed with a shovel years ago.

you, my guy, are definitely my new favourite person here on sasu. you're fucked up and i love it.

 

[y'ffre]

I hate myself because I know myself. And I know there's nothing good about me. I'm rotten to the core. I post on this forum from time to time, and I usually try to present myself as a fellow sufferer who wants to help others go a different path than I did. But that's not the truth. The truth is that I would gladly allow you all to suffer if it allowed me to be happy. When I try to uplift people here, it's only because I know what a joke I am, and it gives me a sense of purpose to think I might be helping. But make no mistake about it: if the devil showed up at my door tomorrow morning and offered me a happy life in exchange for your continued eternal suffering, I would take it in a second. I wouldn't just take it. I would dance on your coffins in celebration. And that makes me sad.

I have no business being on this forum. I have no business being in this world. I'm a no good piece of shit who would be the obvious villain in any TV show you ever watched. I'm a coward. But even worse than that, I'm a coward who is utterly indifferent to anyone's suffering but my own. A normal coward might find redemption by suddenly finding courage when someone he cared about was threatened. I'm the piece of shit villain who refuses to admit he was wrong even as the hero holds a dagger to his throat and tells him to confess.

I'm weak, I'm pathetic, and most of all, I'm not your friend. I'm the snake that you should have smashed with a shovel years ago.

So If you are that bad, why do you hate yourself for this?

 

[make_00]

I'd pay u to dance on my coffin