Venting i hate my professor this class is making me lose it

[spoiledberry]

Everything is so unfair. Disclaimer: I am aware that what I'm about to complain about is meaningless, but I feel the need to tell someone who won't tell me to just get over it. i can't just get over it, I would actually rather die.

im taking this class online and my professor is such a dick. week one i couldnt even access the stupid ancient website he wants us to use because i was having troublewith it not to mention it costs 121 dollars like thank you i dont have to eat for the next few weeks or anything in the god forsaken fucking country. anyway the assignments are bullshit and the grading is done by ai or some bullshit and is wrong. itll tell me what to do even tho i did exactly what im supposed to it'll still mark it wrong cuz the whole site is a piece of shit and my professor is prehistoric and should have died already.the site is supposed to help with learning excel but its using the 2003 version which is completely useless. we just started a module on access and i cant even download it because i have a mac and he acknowledges this but doesnt try to help cuz hes a lazy ass bitch and my tution is paying him to do jack shit. so i cant even attepted tonights assignment.

I know this sounds incredibly privileged i know i am incredibly lucky to be able to attend college or whatever but i dont even want it. i just want to die already but i keep thinking about how sad my friends and family would be if i did and it tears me up. why can't i just be normal and do things right why do i lose it over such small things my life is a mess and i just wnt to start over. maybe in the next life i'll get a degree. or maybe ill be born as a butterlfy or something.

thanks 4 reading

 

[Suspect_Device]

Excel and spreadsheets can make one really want to end things. I have screwed up at work twice at work and each time they make me spend weeks auditing spreadsheets as a kind of unsaid punishment.