Hello to all
I'm 19 year old Muslim male but I feel so old. I just graduated with engineering certificate but I don't want to work. My family wants me to get engaged they told me I will get engaged I'm afraid it will be arranged. I don't believe in God and I'm being forced to follow. I want to end my life, not interested in life. I don't sleep I take melatonin but it's not helping. I'm scared to die but how to live with the above? There is no way out. I even told my dad if I can go to a different state for better job opportunities but he refused. I hate my parents. They know I have depression and anxiety but they don't care. I can get a gun I'm just too scared to use it. I hate religion. I hate my family. I hate life.
I'm 19 year old Muslim male but I feel so old. I just graduated with engineering certificate but I don't want to work. My family wants me to get engaged they told me I will get engaged I'm afraid it will be arranged. I don't believe in God and I'm being forced to follow. I want to end my life, not interested in life. I don't sleep I take melatonin but it's not helping. I'm scared to die but how to live with the above? There is no way out. I even told my dad if I can go to a different state for better job opportunities but he refused. I hate my parents. They know I have depression and anxiety but they don't care. I can get a gun I'm just too scared to use it. I hate religion. I hate my family. I hate life.
