I hate how I can't kill myself.

[$_____]

I'm so scared, too fucking scared. I know there won't be a me to feel, and oblivion doesn't even feel like forever because to feel forever means to feel something. Everyday my brain tortures me because of everything that's happened in my life that was out of my control. I hate being here. I hate being alive. I want it all to be over. The worst part is we all die. Whether we want to or not and to you, it's as if you never existed. So what's the fucking point of prolonging it? Why am I still here Why am I so fucking scared. Fuck me and my fuck ass life. Somebody just kill me in my sleep with 0 pain please, holy fucking shit.

I am suffering.

 

[iwanttodie019]

How old are you and where are you from?

 

[UnknownGuy69]

I more or less feel the same as you, i'm stuck in this cycle and even though i'm told by my friend "with time, it's gonna get better" it doesnt look like that at all, i rather end everything than continue this.

 

[T22222222]

i completely resonate w this.

 

[sleeplessboyinbed]

I'm so scared, too fucking scared. I know there won't be a me to feel, and oblivion doesn't even feel like forever because to feel forever means to feel something. Everyday my brain tortures me because of everything that's happened in my life that was out of my control. I hate being here. I hate being alive. I want it all to be over. The worst part is we all die. Whether we want to or not and to you, it's as if you never existed. So what's the fucking point of prolonging it? Why am I still here Why am I so fucking scared. Fuck me and my fuck ass life. Somebody just kill me in my sleep with 0 pain please, holy fucking shit.

I am suffering.

I ask myself these questions all the time, why am i here if im suffering? Im so scared all the time. I feel so trapped by the fear, unable to do anything. Wishing somebody could kill me just like you
I hope you can get peace in this cruel and chaotic existence

 

[Loveotomy]

We do all die!! That's true. This planet is SO fucking scary but I find it's helpful to determine what helps you feel less scared and more like it's (even just a little bit) more worth living! (For example.. I like cats!! And I want to pat more of them!! So I live in spite of it all!! I do it absolutely terrified but I do it anyway!! (●'◡'●))

And if you can't find anything that makes it more tolerable, that's understandable too! I only hope you find your own peace someday, whether it's in this world or another. (╹ڡ╹ ) <3

 

[$_____]

I ask myself these questions all the time, why am i here if im suffering? Im so scared all the time. I feel so trapped by the fear, unable to do anything. Wishing somebody could kill me just like you
I hope you can get peace in this cruel and chaotic existence

unrelated but is your pfp kaito lmao

I more or less feel the same as you, i'm stuck in this cycle and even though i'm told by my friend "with time, it's gonna get better" it doesnt look like that at all, i rather end everything than continue this.

it sucks when your problem is the passing of time itself and the permanence of the things that happen to you without any chance of ever going back to fix them.

 

[Oblivionetc]

I just can't think of a way to die painlessly. I'm okay with oblivion, I'm just too scared of pain.

 

[rublev66]

Whether we want to or not and to you, it's as if you never existed

Most of the time people exist in the future or the past, but sometimes we can move ourselves beyond the timeline, by walking by the sea, or by watching the person we love. I wouldn't say this means we existed, since, as I said, it's a feeling beyond the timeline. But I wouldn't use "never existed" either.

 

[sleeplessboyinbed]

unrelated but is your pfp kaito lmao

Yep its Kaito XD. Love your Skitti pfp

 

[$_____]

Most of the time people exist in the future or the past, but sometimes we can move ourselves beyond the timeline, by walking by the sea, or by watching the person we love. I wouldn't say this means we existed, since, as I said, it's a feeling beyond the timeline. But I wouldn't use "never existed" either.

you dont know my life

 

[dvzaazai]

i resonate with this, i don't think there's anything i could say to help that isn't patronizing or something you've already heard before, but at the very least there are some people out there who understand what you're going through or may be experiencing a similar thing.

to a certain extent, at least.

 

[$_____]

Yep its Kaito XD. Love your Skitti pfp

thank u haha i love kaito too

i resonate with this, i don't think there's anything i could say to help that isn't patronizing or something you've already heard before, but at the very least there are some people out there who understand what you're going through or may be experiencing a similar thing.

to a certain extent, at least.

i appreciate the honesty

 

[Sadbanana]

From my point of view survival instinct is really nothing more than just our programming. If you are suffering, life isn't worth it, it makes zero logical sense to hold onto life, yet we still do. Because evolutionary those that do are more likely to reproduce, there is nothing more to it than that.

 

[$_____]

From my point of view survival instinct is really nothing more than just our programming. If you are suffering, life isn't worth it, it makes zero logical sense to hold onto life, yet we still do. Because evolutionary those that do are more likely to reproduce, there is nothing more to it than that.

i wish there was though, I wish I could've been happy.

 

[rainatthebusstop]

This really resonated with me. I too am too scared of dying and of the pain that dying entails. I'm even more scared of failing my attempt.

With that being said, while I don't think anyone has good, non-patronizing advice you're otherwise in pretty good company on this site.