Venting I hate how attached bpd makes me

[sximii]

God I fucking hate bpd. I get so attached to people to the point that they become a part of me, and if I'm not with them I go into a depressive episode. There was someone I met recently that I feel this exact way about. I'm not even sure if it's romantic or platonic but I feel so attached to him and it just hurts. I wanna be normal, I wanna have human connections without all this pain.

 

[byebyeblondie]

This I can absolutely relate too. I get attached to people way too fast. And it makes me feel like I'm going crazy.

I want to speak to them often and when we don't talk I get all these insecurities in my head saying 'they don't like you' 'why would they want to talk to you' 'they're obviously going to find someone better' 'you've done something wrong' etc etc … it make me feel awful and so sad.

I wish I was normal too. I whole heartedly would rather be dead than carry on a life with BPD. I feel like I'll never ever have a normal relationship and I also feel like I'm no good to be around.

 

[Alreadylate]

Come on people, we just need some love. That happens to everybody in some degree...

 

[tsykoais]

i know for a fact everyone in my life has been more important to me than i am or was to them

 

[Carrot]

Come on people, we just need some love. That happens to everybody in some degree...

I doubt this was your intention, but this is a bit dismissive.

It reminds me how a relatively healthy person tells a depressed person that everybody feels sad sometimes.

In some cases it, the sadness, the attachment, can be magnitudes higher.

Somebody here can think that having a partner woyld greatly help them, meanwhile there are plenty of people that want to commit suicide while in a reasonable relationship.

 

[Ijustcantanymore]

Hey fellow BPD sufferer here. I completely relate. I fall in love so easily and hard too. It's awful.

Sounds like OP, you've got an fp. A favorite person. Which can be very difficult to deal with.

 

[Alreadylate]

I doubt this was your intention, but this is a bit dismissive.

It reminds me how a relatively healthy person tells a depressed person that everybody feels sad sometimes.

In some cases it, the sadness, the attachment, can be magnitudes higher.

Somebody here can think that having a partner woyld greatly help them, meanwhile there are plenty of people that want to commit suicide while in a reasonable relationship.

Well I have the same problem they have..... But I put it this way I think that's ok it was just an observation nothing else. It happens to me at the same degree it's happening to them probably and what? It is true we all experience this anyway.

 

[coincidentpoint]

Relatable (also have BPD).

It's particularly horrible when you're physically unattractive so you're doomed to constantly favourite-person people who are never going to reciprocate.

 

[Feldsparc]

Bdp attachment is unlike normal attachment...it can drive you crazy. You entire life and self worth revolves around that person. It happened to me and was so scary

 

[coolcow1289]

God I fucking hate bpd. I get so attached to people to the point that they become a part of me, and if I'm not with them I go into a depressive episode. There was someone I met recently that I feel this exact way about. I'm not even sure if it's romantic or platonic but I feel so attached to him and it just hurts. I wanna be normal, I wanna have human connections without all this pain.

Limerence is the worst feeling in the world. It's not really love. It's soul sucking