I don't want to do this anymore, at all. But when I die, my poor family will be devastated maybe to the point of death as well.
There's just one new thing for me though. After 4-5 months of questioning my gender identity I think I'm almost fully conclusive that I want to identify as a woman. My parents are definitely transphobic, and my mother is openly homophobic (neither know that I'm omnisexual and trans). If I start transitioning, I will lose most of my friends and pretty much all of my relatives. Maybe that'll make it easier for me to die though.
There's just one new thing for me though. After 4-5 months of questioning my gender identity I think I'm almost fully conclusive that I want to identify as a woman. My parents are definitely transphobic, and my mother is openly homophobic (neither know that I'm omnisexual and trans). If I start transitioning, I will lose most of my friends and pretty much all of my relatives. Maybe that'll make it easier for me to die though.
