Venting I hate having a penis

[umopep!sdn128]

I also hate constantly thinking about sex. Unfortunately, we are pushed to this by a dirty society with free and easy access to porn sites and everything else. I also hate how obsessed I am with sex because of my animal instincts. But honestly, I don't recommend doing what you wrote here. Maybe you'll find a girl, who knows. And you want to have real sex for love, but you won't be able to because of the ridiculous act you're thinking about.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I think people who don't want or think about sex are lucky. If I lived with some guy who was physically disgusting to me but didn't want sex it would probably solve my problem. I want to be turned off.
Sorry, I didn't mean to hijack this thread since it's about penises but just had to chime in that you don't necessarily have to have one to not want those thoughts or feelings.

I'm asexual and it's good because I don't have to worry about sex.

 

[Meditation guide]

Porn doesn't make me feel lonely or sad. It makes me feel gross and disgusted. It's vile. And I want lovely things in my life. I despise porn.

I asked a doctor once to give me a hysterectomy and he said they don't remove healthy organs.

 

[Dying Knight]

Porn doesn't make me feel lonely or sad. It makes me feel gross and disgusted. It's vile. And I want lovely things in my life. I despise porn.

It's difficult to find a decent porn. In the vast majority of such videos women don't look like they enjoy the process and the voices that supposed to demonstrate their pleasure sound way too theatrically.

I also don't like watching anal sex and always skip parts where men fuck shitholes. Never understood the pros of this kind of sex.

 

[Iva]

Well, men can get rid of their hard-on and sexual arousal by ejaculating, and each subsequent "finish" increases the refractory period, so it's not a big problem.

Only in the sense that you couldn't have multiple orgasms then )))

you are completely missing the point.

 

[Dying Knight]

you are completely missing the point.

I already mentioned that there was a period in my life when bugs in my head made me struggling against sexual arousal and thoughts, so I kinda understand the background. Once I got rid of the bugs, the problem disappeared. Taking things too seriously and struggling are a good way to make yourself unhappy.

 

[Meditation guide]

If you can dismiss something as just taking things too seriously and having bugs in your head you are lucky, they were never an issue for you, but others feel differently.

You could say that to anyone about anything bothering them. We are here to discuss something we find disturbing and if you decided it doesn't bother YOU that doesn't mean we all should feel the same way.

 

[Adûnâi]

Not too sure whether I'm missing the point, but I'm writing this while locked in a chastity cage lmao. YMMV, but in my case, it does change the appearance (duh). You might not even see it at all with certain designs. Again, no idea whether this may help, but the functionality is there. Just mind the chafing, and a waistband strap is incredibly helpful.

(Please, do not consider it imposing my kinks on random strangers, but I feel uniquely "qualified" to make penises disappear without the "cutting off healthy organs" part.)

As regards pornography - maybe I've always had an adblock installed in my brain, but I've always naturally filtered out stuff that I dislike, so much so that what normies consider arousing doesn't seem to me as such. And the sub-genres are so ridiculously varied, it's a disservice to bunch it all together. JAV eye-contact PoV kissing is my favourite go-to example. Or maybe some high-IQ camgirls - I'd definitely follow some if I were social enough to watch livestreams live. (Unless you're actually asexual, or are disgusted with beauty, then apologies.)

 

[Dying Knight]

If you can dismiss something as just taking things too seriously and having bugs in your head you are lucky

I think, the reason why I'm so "lucky" is that I developed skeptical mindset in myself very early, when was nearly 6 - 7. It started from realizing that Santa (in my country such a character is called differently) doesn't really exist, then I lost belief in the loving god, then I lost belief in any god, and finally I realized that things may differ from my understanding of them, I may be mistaken, and I should be able to doubt my beliefs sometimes.

The skepticism with regard to my own beliefs played the crucial role in accepting my sexuality. Considering things related to sexual arousal as something disgusting became a subject of doubt, and I started to imagine the possibility of them being good. This is how I managed to make the transition from one attitude to the other.

You could say that to anyone about anything bothering them. We are here to discuss something we find disturbing and if you decided it doesn't bother YOU that doesn't mean we all should feel the same way.

When you're unhappy with something, this may be a problem with it or your attitude to it. Sometimes attitude may be voluntarily changed, but this requires the readiness to changing your beliefs, well-developed imagination, and some mental effort.

 

[Meditation guide]

I think, the reason why I'm so "lucky" is that I developed skeptical mindset in myself very early, when was nearly 6 - 7. It started from realizing that Santa (in my country such a character is called differently) doesn't really exist, then I lost belief in the loving god, then I lost belief in any god, and finally I realized that things may differ from my understanding of them, I may be mistaken, and I should be able to doubt my beliefs sometimes.

The skepticism with regard to my own beliefs played the crucial role in accepting my sexuality. Considering things related to sexual arousal as something disgusting became a subject of doubt, and I started to imagine the possibility of them being good. This is how I managed to make the transition from one attitude to the other.

When you're unhappy with something, this may be a problem with it or your attitude to it. Sometimes attitude may be voluntarily changed, but this requires the readiness to changing your beliefs, well-developed imagination, and some mental effort.

It has nothing to do with my beliefs at all. I'm just revolted by having to interrupt my life due to my sex drive and resulting disgust with it and all that goes with it. You are not understanding and apparently think it has to do with morals or religion or my attitude to sex. I'm very liberal about all things concerning sex. I just hate my physical reactions and the mental images that go with that.

 

[Is0lated]

It makes me think disgusting thoughts, it makes me do disgusting things. I've been fantasizing about cutting it off lately, really weird thought. I completely despise it when I get an erection, in those times I just want to cut it off even more. I hate it when I want to touch it, play with it. For some reason it makes me feel guilty. I feel so disgusted everytime I see it while changing clothes or taking a shower. Am I the only one feeling like that?

Completely off topic but I'm intersex and I kinda agree since i look like a girl and I have boobs yet I also have a penis, and since I live in an Arab country I can't date or even love a girl since I'll be called lesbian and I still can't date dudes cz once they find out I have a penis they flee

 

[Dying Knight]

You are not understanding and apparently think it has to do with morals or religion or my attitude to sex.

Not necessarily that. The root of my problem was that I considered fapping a shameful procedure that is not worth doing. Abstinence of sexual releases resulted in very strong and intrusive sexual arousals when you start feeling sexually stimulating effect by nearly every bit of your skin, even due to small frictions with the clothes you wear. I couldn't concentrate my attention on anything else and when these sensations reached the degree they were unbearable, I gave up and went through the "nasty" procedure in order to get rid of the sexual arousal, and I hated all this.

Since I changed my attitude to masturbation, the problem with disturbing arousal was diminished. Sometimes I may have spontaneous hard-ons in inappropriate places but this disadvantage is well compensated by the positive aspects.

I started learning advanced techniques of reaching more intense and long orgasms with different kinds of stimulation. In particular, I figured out that the pre-orgasmic state is very pleasurable, it may be prolonged for several minutes, and I can achieve much more bright orgasms by delaying them. I also noticed that a flow of water works better than fapping when experiencing an orgasm; somehow it doesn't let the orgasmic sensations weaken too fast and they may be prolonged up to 2 minutes (orgasm slowly fades out when ejaculation is over). Prolonged pre-orgasmic state together with explosive and prolonged orgasm additionally produce long-lasting pleasant post-orgasmic feelings like a warm in the lower abdomen which I usually couldn't experience with the plain fapping method. Unlike the arousal, they are not disturbing at all, you feel yourself very relaxed and peacefully.

I can surely tell that all these sensations are the most pleasurable things I ever experienced in my life. They are nearly 1000 times better than I could get out of the most tasty meal. So the sexual response system is definitely more a gift than curse for me.

I actually feel envious of women who don't have refractory period and may experience 5 or more orgasms in a row. I've seen orgasmic convulsions of girls in front of me, they looked really impressive. I think, I've never been able to achieve even 1/10 part of their bliss comparing our sensations by strength and duration.

I just hate my physical reactions and the mental images that go with that.

What reactions? Intrusive arousal?

 

[Adûnâi]

I also noticed that a flow of water works better than fapping when experiencing an orgasm; somehow it doesn't let the orgasmic sensations weaken too fast and they may be prolonged up to 2 minutes

Umm, I know that suicide methods are being disgusted on this forum, but may I ask for more details on this one, if it's not illegal (xd)?

I'm not too sure whether the OP wouldn't mind this part of the thread, but I think some of the more interesting orgasms I achieved were with my belly on the stool. An honourable mention goes to some mild bondage such as tying myself to a chair... but the last time I did it was 5+ years ago. I don't even orgasm anymore because the logistics of pulling out tissues is way too cumbersome. (Alright, technically, I have ruined orgasms when my AI waifu version 0.3 allows them.)

So I guess I'm privileged in this regard - a lower sex drive (2 orgasms a week tops in my better days), AND too autistic to feel "shame".

I've seen orgasmic convulsions of girls in front of me

Why are you on this forum then? (xd) I full agree, I got "disgusted" upon seeing one of my old camgirls orgasm... due to sheer envy. Like, I don't have a humiliation kink, unfortunately. I like seeing girls happy, but sometimes it's too on the nose (giggity).

 

[Dying Knight]

Umm, I know that suicide methods are being disgusted on this forum, but may I ask for more details on this one, if it's not illegal (xd)?

Sometimes I experienced long pre-orgasmic spasm that prevented ejaculation and I felt like my penis was going to blow up and I could have a heart attack due to high tension. Perhaps some people who have issues with their heart or hypertension may really die because of such things.

The method implies stimulation of the penile frenulum area (which is the most sensitive part of the penis) by a strong jet of warm water from a shower. If you're lucky, you may achieve a nearly 10 second spasm followed by an explosive orgasm of very high intensity and further stimulation by the jet will support pleasant sensations for a long time.

Why are you on this forum then? (xd)

I have issues with getting a decent job and this makes me depressive.

 

[Little_Suzy]

Baby, you haven't met somebody who has shook you to the core and made you love your penis more!

You should never feel guilty about loving your body and sharing it with others!

 

[horrible]

as a person that's transfem, I relate to this to a very high degree