Venting i hate coming back here

[bussy]

dont get me wrong i love this place, i can share how i feel about wanting to ctb without being ridiculed or judged.
its just that every time i think im getting better i find my way here and end up hurting myself again. im making no progress in life and i swear, if i come back to this place one more time, im going to properly attempt ctb because i am sick of this constant cycle.

kind of making a promise to myself this time.

 

[caninecomposer]

It's sad that life forces us into these mentalities, none of us should have to end up here. I truly hope you're able to find peace or happiness, one way or another.

 

[Bunni'sLullaby]

@bussy I fear I understand exactly what you mean. I strayed away from here for a small while, trying to keep myself busy and distracted. But, yet--here I am. I am growing tired and weary of this seemingly never-ending cycle of "if I wait long enough, it'll be okay" and "I can't handle this anymore." I truly hope you find the peace you are searching for in your life, even if it comes little by little. If anything, I am glad that you can come here; a place in which others understand without judgement.

 

[IchijouRirika]

honestly, I've joined recently but, only way I see myself ever leaving this website for good is the day I ctb as I've lost hope that this is ever getting better, and lost someone that gave meaning and color to my life, so no point.

 

[UKscotty]

If you want to get better, you should try the recovery section of the forum.

Not trying to be an asshole but many of us in this part of the forum don't want to get well anymore. You are unlikely to get healthy advice in this part of the forum.