Venting I hate being trapped. I can't even have a good death.

[prone2fury]

Can't CTB after Election Day (US) because I don't want to ruin my family's Christmas. Can't CTB after Christmas because I have a meet with my girlfriends planned. Can't CTB now because I'm scared shitless. All the while, life keeps proving to me that people are hell and money is all that matters. I've had a good few weeks, but I know that life has a way of torturing you so the pain doesn't get too familiar.

Also, I ran out of weed-related stuff, so that sucks too. I sincerely hope that I die in an accident soon, or find the courage (or drunkenness) to end it all.

 

[KillingPain267]

Drinking hasn't helped me have courage to do hanging

 

[Adûnâi]

Is having a gf worthwhile?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling trapped in this existence, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[prone2fury]

Is having a gf worthwhile?

It's nice but it's a small comfort against the weight of everything else. Like if someone gave you a teddy bear to hold while you are getting stabbed to death. It's good but outweighed by everything.

 

[whitesumac]

Drinking hasn't helped me have courage to do hanging

The last 3 times I hanged the bloody rope snapped or the bar some how breaks? So I have to try meds