I hate being stuck in a limbo, wanting to both live and die.

[Parnate]

I hate that I desire to both live and die. I keep on fluctuating between wanting to live and die. I hate being stuck in this limbo . Oscillating like this.
There have been three suicides in my family, mother's side. I wish I had that resolve to end it. There are hours of intense desire to end it but I always end up controlling myself from doing that.

 

[wham311]

Different limbo, I don't want either

Sorry friend

 

[kitkat9234]

Same here. I feel trapped.

 

[usernamesarehard]

I'm struggling with this too. I want to ctb to just not have to deal with all the bullshit involved in living. But I also want to live and see if things get better.

 

[pauli36]

Same here too

 

[Cauliflour]

Stick around, you'll reach your answer eventually. You can want to die if you're alive but you can't want to live if you're dead.