I had planned to go tonight

[niiina]

It's the evening here and I planned to ctb in the middle of the night. Now out of nowhere I'm having a terrible fever.
Could that be a face of the infamous SI?

 

[FuneralCry]

It's hard to say what could have caused that. But at least the option to exit this world is always there for when the time is right. This is why I would see it as best to not set a date for ctb as something could potentially interfere with plans, but after all I believe it to be a feeling that the person has when they know that it's time to leave this world. I wish you the best.

 

[jodes2]

It's the evening here and I planned to ctb in the middle of the night. Now out of nowhere I'm having a terrible fever.
Could that be a face of the infamous SI?

Oh that would suck. Has the fever stopped you in your tracks? Or do you think you'll persevere?

 

[Ineedtodie]

That's certainly a wierd timing.

 

[niiina]

Oh that would suck. Has the fever stopped you in your tracks? Or do you think you'll persevere?

That's certainly a wierd timing.

Idk I think Im just way too scared I cant stop shaking, but living is even more scaring, Im folded into a little ball in the corner of my bed, fever is still here and my heart will explode, Im scared of everything and I just want to die in this position

 

[jodes2]

Idk I think Im just way too scared I cant stop shaking, but living is even more scaring, Im folded into a little ball in the corner of my bed, fever is still here and my heart will explode, Im scared of everything and I just want to die in this position

Lots of hugs for you, it shouldn't have to be this hard

 

[SectOfValtiel]

Im sorry you have to go through this, I wish it really was the 'easy way out' everyone seems to think it is...
Everyone in this community deserves a peaceful journey to somewhere better or at least without suffering, including you
And I hope one day, even if not today, that suffering stops for you entirely
Whatever which way it takes to achieve that

I wish you good luck

 

[Ineedtodie]

Idk I think Im just way too scared I cant stop shaking, but living is even more scaring, Im folded into a little ball in the corner of my bed, fever is still here and my heart will explode, Im scared of everything and I just want to die in this position

Sorry it had to be this way for you. I know how being in that position feels like. Don't give yourself hard time. Ctb is really hard and scary.

 

[hunterfla]

It's the evening here and I planned to ctb in the middle of the night. Now out of nowhere I'm having a terrible fever.
Could that be a face of the infamous SI?

I would think that would be even more motivation...if the time is right otherwise. I mean do you want to wait for the fever to subside to feel better? I'm confused.

 

[brdhndz]

I'm so sorry, you deserve to have a peaceful and painless night. Whatever you decide, to go through with it or to wait until you are feeling better, we'll support you.

 

[Nirrend]

It's the evening here and I planned to ctb in the middle of the night. Now out of nowhere I'm having a terrible fever.
Could that be a face of the infamous SI?

Hi sweet @niiina

Yes this could be SI..

And like your describing it, this is awful to live

Wishing you the best ❤