I guess this is goodbye (Pong Pong) Is it going to be extraordinarily painful?

[it's_all_a_game]

OP, your story is a great example of why mindless "transgender" worship can horribly backfire. I feel sorry for you.

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

OP, your story is a great example of why mindless "transgender" worship can horribly backfire. I feel sorry for you.

Honestly, it's a mental illness. Nothing more. I was only 18, but I thought we had the science and technology needed to actually transition to the opposite gender. But we don't. We are still very primitive. And unfortunately, I've learned the hard way... no surgeon even wants to touch me.

BUT, starting in 5 hours,
Goodbye shitty politicians,
Goodbye Dr Frankensteins,
Goodbye mutilated genitalia,
Goodbye embarrassment,
Goodbye shitty humans,
Goodbye autism (speech issues, communication issues, no work ethic, etc)
Goodbye poverty ($120 a month in Public Assistance is nothing),
Goodbye damaged body,
Goodbye pain
Goodbye sick society!

If I'm able to pull this off successfully, I'll be happy that I'll no longer be sharing the same oxygen as everyone else. We don't deserve this planet.

I'm rather happy that I'll be (hopefully) dead sometime tonight. :) There will be no more suffering and this 5 year nightmare will finally be over! No more pain, no more risk of homelessness, no more having to deal with people, etc etc. I kinda feel sorry for my mother, she's struggling with her home life too and jumping from one man to another, but she was offered an abortion before I was born and she should have chosen it! As for my two little sisters, they're better off without me anyway. I'm only good at ruining things.

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

At 11:50pm (in about 3 hours) I'm supposed to take 3 x 10mg Metoclopramide (Reglan) 30mg and 800mg of Cimetidine OTC Tagamet.

At 12:00am, I'm going to try and use mouthwash before I drink the SN. But afterwards, if I'm able to drink the SN, since I don't have any beta blockers, maybe I should take 10mg Ativan? Or should it be higher? They're 2mg each...

I hope this isn't too painful.

If there's a Heaven, I hope it's filled with cannabis, honey, and anything I can think of! :)

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm so sorry for everything you have had to endure. I don't know if this is too personal but did you have to go through any kind of therapy before the operation? I was told by someone that people had to go through year's of therapy before an operation or did the doctors just take the money?
Judging by the therapy some received on here ... It maybe wasn't the best.

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

I'm so sorry for everything you have had to endure. I don't know if this is too personal but did you have to go through any kind of therapy before the operation? I was told by someone that people had to go through year's of therapy before an operation or did the doctors just take the money?
Judging by the therapy some received on here ... It maybe wasn't the best.

Yes, 1 year minimum. But the surgery is a hit or miss type of surgery, which isn't advertised.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Yes, 1 year minimum. But the surgery is a hit or miss type of surgery.

I'm still surprised they would do an operation for someone so young.

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

I'm still surprised they would do an operation for someone so young.

I was taking hormones at 15 and had the surgery at 18. I'm now 23.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I was taking hormones at 15 and had the surgery at 18. I'm now 23.

I'm not sure how I feel about someone so young taking hormones. I don't know enough about the science of how it works. Also should someone be allowed to take them that young. What if they change their mind? Even if their surgery is a success... There isn't any guarantee they will be any happier.
I don't know... I guess some people know what they want.
I just think the therapy should be longer... Maybe a few years.

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

I'm not sure how I feel about someone so young taking hormones. I don't know enough about the science of how it works. Also should someone be allowed to take them that young. What if they change their mind? Even if their surgery is a success... There isn't any guarantee they will be any happier.
I don't know... I guess some people know what they want.
I just think the therapy should be longer... Maybe a few years.

First of all, euthanasia should be offered to transgender people. If therapy can't fix them, surgery won't. It's like a disability. Kill the disabled. That's my solution. Of course not forcefully, but there should be an option on the table. Always.

Second of all, estrogen damages the male body and testosterone damages the female body. Cross-sex hormones should not be given, especially not like candy.

Third of all, it is impossible to replicate anatomically correct genitalia to the opposite gender. Maybe by next century it will be possible, who knows. But for now it ought to be criminalized. What about people like me? With nothing more than a gaping hole in my body?

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

First of all, euthanasia should be offered to transgender people. If therapy can't fix them, surgery won't.

Second of all, estrogen damages the male body and testosterone damages the female body. Cross-sex hormones should not be given, especially not like candy.

Third of all, it is impossible to replicate anatomically correct genitalia to the opposite gender. Maybe by next century it will be possible, who knows. But for now it ought to be criminalized. What about people like me? With nothing more than a gaping hole in my body?

I just want to say thank you because I didn't know. Transgender people should be told the truth about what will happen. I'm sure some may be happy but not everyone.

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

Great. Now there's yelling outside. I thought it was a robbery, but now it sounds like a dispute of some kind.

Oh well. At least they're not here for me, so that calms me down a little bit...

What a perfect night to do this. *SIgh*

I just want to say thank you because I didn't know. Transgender people should be told the truth about what will happen. I'm sure some may be happy but not everyone.

It doesn't matter. The World Health Organization has already declassified being transgender as a non-mental health condition. Its own category. And, apparently gender is fluid and not binary. So watch all these surgeons pocket their money and show off their best work... while people like me are discarded and silenced.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm headed out. I wish you peace and love on the other side. I just want you to know that you will be missed.

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

I'm headed out. I wish you peace and love on the other side. I just want you to know that you will be missed.

Thank you, hopefully everything goes smoothly... 2 hours until midnight!

 

[it's_all_a_game]

I'm so sorry to witness this. Your story is infuriating. PC culture is BS. I wish you eternal peace.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Thank you, hopefully everything goes smoothly... 2 hours until midnight!

 

[Conflict3d]

Wish you the best with whatever happens. Hopefully you have a safe and peaceful journey to the other side. Sorry that this life has been so cruel to you .

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

Wish you the best with whatever happens. Hopefully you have a safe and peaceful journey to the other side. Sorry that this life has been so cruel to you .

I hope so too. Thank you for your kindness. I wish I could have been more kind to people, but that's difficult for me. I've never killed anyone though, so maybe I'm not entirely bad...

11:00PM. Just took 30mg Metoclopramide (Reglan).

At 11:30PM (Cimetidine OTC) Tagamet 800MG and 1000mg Acetaminophen.

At 12:00AM. The SN drink. 28g in 50ML water. 10mg of Ativan (2mg each).

It's now almost midnight. The drinks are ready. It's almost midnight. They're cold and the color is yellow. I'm scared, tbh.

 

[Evolutionary_Mistake]

It's now midnight. I drunk it. My heart is racing.

(Public) My Suicide Note - Please Don't Open Until After 7 Days Of Confirmed Death.

 

[In2TheVoid]

Wishing you a peaceful journey

 

[Conflict3d]

Thinking of you. Safe travels

 

[unperson]

Sorry to hear about the struggles you've had.

 

[In2TheVoid]

I hope everything is going alright for you

 

[it's_all_a_game]

R.I.P. beautiful soul.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I hope you are at peace. Rest well brother.

 

[ready2goHomenow]

I hope I'm not too late, but if you're going to use pong pong seeds, get some (10-20) datura inoxia seeds first. It's gonna be messy and painful otherwise. I'll be back!

How do the seeds you mentioned make the process of using pong pong seeds easier?

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

How do the seeds you mentioned make the process of using pong pong seeds easier?

Datura inoxa contains scopolamine along with other tropane alkaloids. They block out the gastrointestinal distress that is caused by cholinergic agonism caused by the cardiac glycosides, which in this case is cerberin.

 

[ready2goHomenow]

Thank you for that important information. How soon do you ingest them before the pong seeds?
I've got all of what I thought I needed. I will add these seeds to my ctb plan.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Thank you for that important information. How soon do you ingest them before the pong seeds?
I've got all of what I thought I needed. I will add these seeds to my ctb plan.

30 minutes. Look into this thread.

https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&sou...AQFnoECAQQAQ&usg=AOvVaw0GgtEw0hcFGf5qIqBfkwQg

 

[befree]

I have a recipe for a cocktail if someone want´s it.

 

[Shu]

I hope so too. Thank you for your kindness. I wish I could have been more kind to people, but that's difficult for me. I've never killed anyone though, so maybe I'm not entirely bad...

11:00PM. Just took 30mg Metoclopramide (Reglan).

At 11:30PM (Cimetidine OTC) Tagamet 800MG and 1000mg Acetaminophen.

At 12:00AM. The SN drink. 28g in 50ML water. 10mg of Ativan (2mg each).

It's now almost midnight. The drinks are ready. It's almost midnight. They're cold and the color is yellow. I'm scared, tbh.

Rest in peace