sohopelessandempty
Still alive, just not active here sometimes so dw
- Nov 23, 2025
- 78
GUYS THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN A WHOLE MONTH WHERE I WENT A FEW HOURS WITHOUT WANTING TO DIE!!! If anyone's wondering why I couldn't see him for so long, I explained in a reply of one of my other posts but basically I'm 18, just a high school senior due to my birthday instead of turning 18 in college like some people in my grade. And the job market here is shit, so I haven't been able to find work. So basically I'm still stuck under my parents roof with no car or money for myself, and they are strict and honestly abusive(not physically these days but still) so they are the ones who control if I see him. He reminded me that life is worth living, I can't believe I forgot. He makes me feel like recovery is possible. Obviously I'm still mentally ill, but any pain relief is good, even if it's only temporary. I meant that in the sense that I can't see him very often, not that our relationship is temporary. We plan to get married in a couple years, when we're financially stable.
