I'm writing this here because I haven't let myself actually think about or process this yet.
I met this guy about 2 or 3 weeks ago, he drove an hour to come pick me up and we went back to his apartment. We were planning to meet just for a hook up, and It went very well. I played with his kitten and he took me to dinner and a comic shop where he even bought me an anime figure. I ended up staying the night and then he brought me back home the next morning.
There were a few things that were very off-putting to me; He had asked in advance if he could get me drunk to take advantage of me. I didn't really know what to say to this, but at first I didn't really mind because I thought it was just a fantasy or kink of some sort. He did make me drink, as soon as I was done with one drink he would go to the fridge and get me another. Throughout this time he kept asking how I was feeling, and later I was dizzy and tipsy, but still somewhat coherent.
Long story short after he dropped me off the next morning, I found out a few days later that I was pregnant. I told him and he asked me to come over. I was kind of avoiding seeing him again, but now that I was pregnant it was a different story. I hesitantly agreed to see him and he picked me up. He would not stop kissing or touching me and each time, I would freeze up, not reciprocating the kissing or touching. He even made a comment about me being nervous. We sat on the couch, he tried to put his hand in my pants. I said no and he pulled it out. A few minutes later he asked me to get drunk, because it's "hot when I don't know what's going on." I told him I shouldn't drink because I was pregnant and he told me to do it anyways because it would get rid of it. I took a drink of a Buzzball and threw it all up immediately and felt sick. He said I didn't have to drink and was visibly upset about this, but I ignored it because I didn't give a fuck and was beginning to feel in danger of some sorts.
Every time I told him I didn't want to have sex, he would tell me, "You can't get pregnant a second time so it doesn't matter." And would touch and kiss me everywhere.
At one point he made me lay down on the couch in front of him and he pulled down his pants and put his dick against my butt, and when I tried to pull away he put his hand on my stomach and pulled my pants down with his other hand. I froze up because I didn't know what to do and then threw myself off the couch and said I was feeling nauseous from my pregnancy (that was kind of true but it was more of an excuse).
Fast forward to when we were laying in his bed (I had to stay the night), he did the same thing where he pressed up against me and I was beginning to get scared so I lay still like I was sleeping, and a few minutes went by and he started touching my butt. I was still frozen in fear and pretended to be asleep, and he pulled my pants down again. At one point he started to finger me and I "woke up" because it hurt, and he immediately stopped. I don't want to think about what he could've done while I was actually asleep.
At around 7 am the next morning, I was already awake because I couldn't sleep. I felt him wake up beside me, and my back was facing him so he couldn't see I was awake. He sat still for a second before putting his hand in my pants and fingering me yet again. This was when he thought I was sleeping btw. He did it for about five minutes and then finally stopped.
I've never felt more in danger. I pretended to be asleep for about another hour and then made up a lie that I had a Thanksgiving dinner with friends to go to so he could take me home early. When I got home I ran straight to my room and didn't come out for about four days.
I have never felt more disgusted with myself. I feel so dirty. The reason why I let him cum inside me on our first visit (when I got pregnant) was because he had told me he was infertile and medically couldn't reproduce or have children. He lied to me and now I have a baby inside of me and I feel so disgusted with myself, especially because it's his.
I sent him a text and told him I didn't want to have sex anymore. He told me as long as he got to see me, it was fine with him and he even said he could get a vasectomy. Because of this, I was under the impression that he actually liked me and wanted a relationship. I did not like him and I did not want a relationship with him, but I had to pretend to be nice so he could send me the money for my abortion pills. He did, and I ordered them. They came in yesterday.
I looked on his Reddit and he had commented about wanting to meet up with someone for sex. This was after he had told me that it was ok I didn't want to have sex and that he liked me for me. Even though I didn't like him and didn't want a relationship, seeing those comments made me really mad. Now he's blocked on everything and I'm about to go through this abortion by myself.
I hate him so much. You are so weird and chopped. You are going to be a future sex offender you fucking weirdo. I hope you die before I do
Thank you if you read this far I just needed to vent and get this all off my chest
I met this guy about 2 or 3 weeks ago, he drove an hour to come pick me up and we went back to his apartment. We were planning to meet just for a hook up, and It went very well. I played with his kitten and he took me to dinner and a comic shop where he even bought me an anime figure. I ended up staying the night and then he brought me back home the next morning.
There were a few things that were very off-putting to me; He had asked in advance if he could get me drunk to take advantage of me. I didn't really know what to say to this, but at first I didn't really mind because I thought it was just a fantasy or kink of some sort. He did make me drink, as soon as I was done with one drink he would go to the fridge and get me another. Throughout this time he kept asking how I was feeling, and later I was dizzy and tipsy, but still somewhat coherent.
Long story short after he dropped me off the next morning, I found out a few days later that I was pregnant. I told him and he asked me to come over. I was kind of avoiding seeing him again, but now that I was pregnant it was a different story. I hesitantly agreed to see him and he picked me up. He would not stop kissing or touching me and each time, I would freeze up, not reciprocating the kissing or touching. He even made a comment about me being nervous. We sat on the couch, he tried to put his hand in my pants. I said no and he pulled it out. A few minutes later he asked me to get drunk, because it's "hot when I don't know what's going on." I told him I shouldn't drink because I was pregnant and he told me to do it anyways because it would get rid of it. I took a drink of a Buzzball and threw it all up immediately and felt sick. He said I didn't have to drink and was visibly upset about this, but I ignored it because I didn't give a fuck and was beginning to feel in danger of some sorts.
Every time I told him I didn't want to have sex, he would tell me, "You can't get pregnant a second time so it doesn't matter." And would touch and kiss me everywhere.
At one point he made me lay down on the couch in front of him and he pulled down his pants and put his dick against my butt, and when I tried to pull away he put his hand on my stomach and pulled my pants down with his other hand. I froze up because I didn't know what to do and then threw myself off the couch and said I was feeling nauseous from my pregnancy (that was kind of true but it was more of an excuse).
Fast forward to when we were laying in his bed (I had to stay the night), he did the same thing where he pressed up against me and I was beginning to get scared so I lay still like I was sleeping, and a few minutes went by and he started touching my butt. I was still frozen in fear and pretended to be asleep, and he pulled my pants down again. At one point he started to finger me and I "woke up" because it hurt, and he immediately stopped. I don't want to think about what he could've done while I was actually asleep.
At around 7 am the next morning, I was already awake because I couldn't sleep. I felt him wake up beside me, and my back was facing him so he couldn't see I was awake. He sat still for a second before putting his hand in my pants and fingering me yet again. This was when he thought I was sleeping btw. He did it for about five minutes and then finally stopped.
I've never felt more in danger. I pretended to be asleep for about another hour and then made up a lie that I had a Thanksgiving dinner with friends to go to so he could take me home early. When I got home I ran straight to my room and didn't come out for about four days.
I have never felt more disgusted with myself. I feel so dirty. The reason why I let him cum inside me on our first visit (when I got pregnant) was because he had told me he was infertile and medically couldn't reproduce or have children. He lied to me and now I have a baby inside of me and I feel so disgusted with myself, especially because it's his.
I sent him a text and told him I didn't want to have sex anymore. He told me as long as he got to see me, it was fine with him and he even said he could get a vasectomy. Because of this, I was under the impression that he actually liked me and wanted a relationship. I did not like him and I did not want a relationship with him, but I had to pretend to be nice so he could send me the money for my abortion pills. He did, and I ordered them. They came in yesterday.
I looked on his Reddit and he had commented about wanting to meet up with someone for sex. This was after he had told me that it was ok I didn't want to have sex and that he liked me for me. Even though I didn't like him and didn't want a relationship, seeing those comments made me really mad. Now he's blocked on everything and I'm about to go through this abortion by myself.
I hate him so much. You are so weird and chopped. You are going to be a future sex offender you fucking weirdo. I hope you die before I do
Thank you if you read this far I just needed to vent and get this all off my chest
