I got my N

[hopeless123]

When I got my N, the sense of relief it provided was massive. My mind calmed, there's my exit. I went from trying to hang myself every other week, to start sorting other things in my life.

I'm now feeling fully suicidal again. I told my arresting officer that I don't want to die in public as I'm shy and scared but still the local car park is an option. I said I want to die in my own home in peace, I don't want people gawping at me as they to scrape me off the floor.

I had everything. I had 2 bottles of N, meto, that Oraljel stuff, the little scissors to cut the metal tab open, it was all sealed in a air tight bag, in a bag, in a bag in my salad drawer in my fridge. I felt like a smug little prick. I've finally got some control over my life.


I don't know any of you but all the time I was in a cell was thinkin about this forum. What I wanted to say to you and warn you. One of my arresting officers was 21 and I'm 48 and I had to tell him I cant move forward in my life any more and I want to die.

Who can I or anyone else openly talk about ending it apart from here.

Im waiting on a call or something from the mental health team and if I dont engage i will get prosecuted.

its really hit me hard today.

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

I am happy that some people are receiving their orders from D. I am sure you now have some peace of mind.

Please be wary that the police may come later looking for the parcel, so be prepared for this potential. I do not know what other people do, but i guess disposing of the packaging or moving it to a different location can help.

@mblum What would you advise new buyers of N? You said you done a lot of preparation to avoid LE.... like what? What was your plan? If you do get a visit how will you deal with this? What to say etc? Hopefully you can give a lot more tips for potential buyers so they can avoid issues.

Thanks

Hide it away from your property, say it was stolen off your door stop so you never received it. Use a different name on address receiver, so you're not involved. I'm guessing.

 

[Shu]

Hello, I was honest about what it was and how I was feeling and what I was hoping to do.. I was going to try argue it was something else but decided to come clean. They asked me how I got it and I said online, from where, I didn't tell them, what's his name, I don't know, where is it from, don't know, what's his email, cant remember deleted, how much, I said close to a grand.

I was more interested how they just turned up at my door. its' when they said you bought it on the 30 March and I didnt have it delivered to my home address really blew me away.
I wasn't interviewed for a huge amount of time, maybe 30mins. I was in a cell for most of it.


I'm only letting you guys know not to scare you but to warn you that they know, in the UK 100%, so hide it unbelievably well. They mentioned it was still an unusual drug and I'm the second one in my county (Surrey, UK) to be arrested for it.

just my luck.

I don't know but if you were in my country and you were honest a law enforcement about what it was and how you were feeling you would have been sent straight to the hospital not sure how you were able to avoid that

For all anyone knows, LE could be getting the names of the N recipients right off of SaSu. Well, maybe not directly off SaSu, but through the user's interaction with SaSu. It seems that everyone who receives their N posts a message about getting it. If LE monitors SaSu, and I'm sure they do, how much would it take to get a court order for the user's records from the poster's ISP, which, in turn, connects the SaSu user to the Internet service account being used, along with a name and address, which leads right to the person receiving the N and a knock at the door. Determining the identity of recipients may have nothing to do with D at all.

Yeah I agree with you I'm not sure why everyone has to bring so much attention toward these things just order your product and let it be.
D

Hi guys, it's really late here and I'm still in shock and quite numb but I've just been released from a police station for possession of a controlled substance. I 've been there for 9 hours!

The police knocked on my door and searched my flat at 5pm Monday and found my N in my fridge. I've had it for 3 months. The police knew exactly what and when I ordered it because they told me.

They seized my phone under Section 19 PACE. My N has been confiscated and heading to West Midlands Police for testing.

I've been released pending further investigation. My arresting officer (she is quite fit btw) in case she's reading this :D said she was given instructions to arrest me and collect a bottle of pentalbarbital info which came from intelligence, maybe GCHQ

I might make a proper post tomorrow, I lost my N and I'm so lost

i was arrested in front of neighbours. im devastated and have work in 5 hours

Hi.. sorry.. just curious.. aren't you the user that posted a picture of the receipt or tracking information or something a few months back?

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/n-from-d-megathread.77724/page-23#post-1535874

 

[hopeless123]

Hi.. sorry.. just curious.. aren't you the user that posted a picture of the receipt or tracking information or something a few months back?

I took a pic of a MoneyGram form and uploaded it here. I was asking people what bits I needed to fill in. Nobody knew including D so I went the bitcoin way. Someone mentioned even though I blurred my name and address out the pic will have meta data on it and it'd be wise to delete it so I did.

I don't know but if you were in my country and you were honest a law enforcement about what it was and how you were feeling you would have been sent straight to the hospital not sure how you were able to avoid that

I had to assure the duty sergeant when I left I wasn't a danger to myself or to others. It was 1.30 in the morning, I wanted to go home and have some cereal and go to bed. They've asked if they can get permission to contact my doctor. I dont mind who they contact as long as its not my brother.

I didn't do anything wrong, I didnt mention I had received it or tell anyone. They knocked on my door yesterday and that was it. Im back to square one again.

 

[plshlpme]

.... I did do a lot to avoid LE showing up and my plan in terms of making sure they didn't worked out well. I'd say if you're in the states, plan ahead, make sure you have good security in place, and wait it out!....

@mblum: What did you do to avoid LE showing up?
What is your plan in case LE does show up?
Could you PM me please?

 

[Funeralprincess]

@mblum: What did you do to avoid LE showing up?
What is your plan in case LE does show up?
Could you PM me please?

Pm me

 

[plshlpme]

Pm me

Pm sent

 

[ojinzo]

Hey everyone! I want to give an update on those nervous about getting N within the US (I can't speak for the security obstacles in other countries)… well I got my N safe and sound and it came a lot quicker than I expected. I did do a lot to avoid LE showing up and my plan in terms of making sure they didn't worked out well. I'd say if you're in the states, plan ahead, make sure you have good security in place, and wait it out! D was incredible, and extremely helpful when it came to any questions, comments, or concerns I had about N and the shipment. I oddly now feel very relaxed about when it's my time to CTB and I think that's because I know I have a safe and peaceful option. I had to save up a few checks for N and I'd say it's well worth the money!

I wish everyone good luck on obtaining N

I'm happy/jealous. I can tell from the tone of your message that you do have a sense of relief. Do you mind if I ask how long did you have to wait and what courier did you select? I've been waiting for weeks now and have up hope. Thank you

Happy for you. A little jealous but happy. When are you planning to drink it? I've seen many people here wait a little while until they drink their N which is always interesting. But it's almost like it relaxes them to not rush I noticed. Was it hard to get it, were you nervous? Hopefully they won't pay you a visit as you are doing it, that would suck, lol. Worst possible timing. Sorry if I made you nervous. Just had this thought. Very unlikely. Wishing you a peaceful passing!

I really like you as I notice we tend to share the same sentiments on this site. I know if I ever receive my gift I plan to ctb immediately. I don't have no more time to have my plans ruined. Especially since I suspect le monitors this site and people's activities.

 

[Lost Magic]

Trust me, there is a good chance LE will turn up at your door. They may or may not conduct a search. Just make sure your N is well hidden and deny everything and you should be fine. D's operation is known, now.

 

[drune11]

Trust me, there is a good chance LE will turn up at your door. They may or may not conduct a search. Just make sure your N is well hidden and deny everything and you should be fine. D's operation is known, now.

How though? If didn't post anything on this website hypothetically, but contacted a source and got my delivery, how could they possibly know what it is? If they did, wouldn't it have been confiscated? I'm asking genuinely btw

 

[Lost Magic]

How though? If didn't post anything on this website hypothetically, but contacted a source and got my delivery, how could they possibly know what it is? If they did, wouldn't it have been confiscated? I'm asking genuinely btw

because it has happened to a lot of people on here (including me). It is shocking that they know, but it has been said that D's shipping location has been found out. This is most likely because he has been using Western Union for many transactions (he should have just stuck with crypto). Any package that has been shipped from his location and sent to any address has been notified to Law Enforcement. It fucking sucks. People just need to be aware and take precautions. Better to be prepared than not.

 

[hopeless123]

Any package that has been shipped from his location and sent to any address has been notified to Law Enforcement.

This isn't correct. I had mine delivered elsewhere. The label had my name but a different address. As far as I know, the police never went to that address but visited twice last week to mine.

 

[Hope:-)]

I don't think there's any way of getting it without a visit atm :-/

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

So distressing

 

[Hercules]

How though? If didn't post anything on this website hypothetically, but contacted a source and got my delivery, how could they possibly know what it is? If they did, wouldn't it have been confiscated? I'm asking genuinely btw

If the package wasn't confiscated at customs, they don't know for certain
what it is. Even if they know that someone ordered a package from a certain person or area, they can't know for certain what you ordered unless they opened it and tested it. You could have ordered anything. They may have suspicion on what it is, but without the package, they can't prove anything. They would only know what it was if you told them or you handed it over to them.

 

[abyss]

:( Is SN any safer from this sort of thing happening?

 

[Lost Magic]

This isn't correct. I had mine delivered elsewhere. The label had my name but a different address. As far as I know, the police never went to that address but visited twice last week to mine.

Okay fine. But the point is cops are visiting people based on some kind of tip-offs (and they know the substance). People need to be aware that they may get a visit and to prepare just in case. That's the main thing. I'm sorry they took your N away btw. That was so shitty of them to do that. I can't believe they just opened your fridge and took it like that.

 

[wljourney]

How though? If didn't post anything on this website hypothetically, but contacted a source and got my delivery, how could they possibly know what it is? If they did, wouldn't it have been confiscated? I'm asking genuinely btw

I have been in contact with a number of people whose packages were seized either before delivery or soon after.
What I've learned is that D ships packages using always the same account number with the shipping company.

At a click of a button the shipping company can produce a list of every package mailed using that specific sender account.

It's the fastest and simplest way. Then local LE just has to cross reference up to date residence information.

So, unless you order under a fake name to a fake address, it's fairly easy to follow up on these deliveries.

I also don't think D ships anything other than N. So the assumption is that ALL shipments contain the same item.

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I also don't think D ships anything other than N. So the assumption is that ALL shipments contain the same item.

That's it! We need to start buying other things from D. Maybe launder some Amazon orders through him.