riamu
walking waste of bandages
- Jan 5, 2023
- 45
i was planning to ctb very soon. my plan was that i was going to go home to see my family at the beginning of this week and then after i came back i'd have a two week time frame to end it before i turned 20, but i ended up getting involuntarily committed on halloween and that messed up my plans. i couldn't go home because i was in the ward and for some reason they ended up calling my mum and telling her that i was in hospital? i'm not sure why, i'm an adult now so it's not like a parent needs to know where i am at all times. maybe it''s because i'm autistic? who knows. but i'm not sure how much she was told, idk if she was given an exact timeframe or not, and i also haven't even gone home yet so i think my plans are fucked and i'm stuck being alive until next year :(
there's no real point to this post, i'm just tipsy and really wanted to vent. if there's any lesson here it's to never call a suicide hotline, no matter how drunk or desperate you are. they might force you into treatment like they did me lmao
there's no real point to this post, i'm just tipsy and really wanted to vent. if there's any lesson here it's to never call a suicide hotline, no matter how drunk or desperate you are. they might force you into treatment like they did me lmao