I Give Up, Life Wins. I Just Can't CTB (for now), what about you?

[timechained]

It hasn't been from a lack of trying, or determination. Many methods have failed.

I am just completely numb, I just don't feel the need to ctb anymore.

I don't feel like living either, so I am stuck.

Life wins, I am stuck here for now...

 

[LastLoveSong]

if you had a button to instantly die would you still press it then? ( i feel similarly by the way, also cool username)

 

[Hollowman]

I'm numb and stuck too. Should've ctb a long time ago.

 

[MeSauce]

Same

It hasn't been from a lack of trying, or determination. Many methods have failed.

I am just completely numb, I just don't feel the need to ctb anymore.

I don't feel like living either, so I am stuck.

Life wins, I am stuck here for now...

I could CTB If I really wanted to, just getting over SI at this point. Survival Instinct is the only thing stopping me at this point

 

[bankai]

Same thing here as well. I'm in limbo. Neither going forwards nor backwards. I'm just waiting for something important to break. That should push me enough hopefully.

 

[lifeisadream]

Totally relate. Fear of something going wrong & ending up in a worse position is stopping me.

 

[timechained]

if you had a button to instantly die would you still press it then? ( i feel similarly by the way, also cool username)

Without hesitation.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

if you had a button to instantly die would you still press it then? ( i feel similarly by the way, also cool username)

Damn right I would.

 

[kitkat9234]

I'm trapped as well. Wish someone would just do it for me. Too afraid that I will fail again. So here I am stuck in Groundhog Day. Numb empty shell of who I used to be.

 

[alwaysalone]

Im a coward or I would've been dead long ago.

 

[Hollowman]

Im a coward or I would've been dead long ago.

You're not a coward. Ctb is one of the hardest things anyone can do.

 

[alwaysalone]

You're not a coward. Ctb is one of the hardest thing anyone can do.

Oh I am I've been less than ounces of a foot lb of pressure away and I just couldn't. LOL

 

[hedezev4]

If you want to do this, you need to mentally prepare yourself and build a logical framework for this action.
I don't think it's something that should be done impulsively.

Your mind should be calm. At least that's how I feel - though maybe I'll change my mind at the last moment too.
I've never tried this before, but my attempt is thought through down to the smallest details. If I remain in the same mindset I have now, it will work.
When the thought appears, "What if I don't actually want this? What if I really want to live?"-
I immediately remind myself that I've been thinking this through for two months, and that if there had been a reason to stay, I wouldn't have been looking for a way to do this.
I recall all the arguments I had against living.
And I try not to think about what will happen to friends and family
All of this helps me not to forget and to maintain a positive mindset.

We'll see if I manage to do it in 48 hours :D

 

[LastLoveSong]

Without hesitation.

me too

ill make one for us :P

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

me too

ill make one for us :P

Please do.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Life won a long time ago. I give up too. Why won't the game end