Venting i get jealous everytime i learn that someone has passed away

[2muchpain2]

Watching the news for example and someone is randomly k!lled by a drunk driver, or a person in the community dies in their sleep from a heart attack or whatever always makes me extremely jealous.
my life is a living hell and the only reason i'm still living it is bc I cannot decide on method, also, i'm so concerned about the people i will leave behind. it would be so much easier if i was just in the 'wrong place at the wrong time' and was wiped from the face of this earth.

 

[wham311]

YESSSSD

 

[Droso]

It annoys me that people who want to live die randomly and people who want to die are always struck with the worst luck of staying alive.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, those who no longer exist are the only ones I envy as all I want is to never exist ever again, I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is all that I see as positive and is the only peace for me, all I see as desirable is being free from the burden of existence that to me is only suffering, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all.

 

[Alexandra_]

I do exactly the same thing every day

 

[lawlietsph]

yeah same i always think about how they don't feel any pain anymore, how they will not hear about the awful news ever again... wish i was brave enough