Venting I fucking hate my whore of a mother

[First loss]

This bitch is always humiliating and insulting and abusing me.
I hope she fucking dies in pain. Alas, I will be the one to die first and the only letter I will leave her is a letter telling her how much I hate her very being. Stupid retarded cunt. I didnt ask to be born.

 

[F_ckthisplace]

I hate mine aswell, fucking bitch

 

[nooo2]

LOL

 

[Ashpac]

Is there anyway you can get away from her and be more successful than her so then you can have the last laugh? I don't know the situation but laughing in someone's face who abuses you by having more than them in life is a smack in the face to that person. If not then I wish you peace if you take your life.

 

[Edrudd]

I love my mom I'm lucky I guess my parents are the best

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Posts like this one, years ago, used to make me pretty angry. Probably because I worshipped my own mother who died very slowly and painfully as I cared for her. I'd have taken her place in a heartbeat and think about her every single day. But since then, I've reevaluated my position on obligations children have to their parents. Life is challenging, competitive, and for many very painful. Even when we have ways to make life less painful, we often choose not to. Yet still, many people make children just because it feels good or it seemed like a good idea at the time. Or worse, they don't really think about it at all. Kids don't ask to be born. But parents who can't protect those kids from a lot of life's hell make them anyway. A lot of people just shouldn't have children (or pets...). They only make life FAR more painful for them. But most people will defend their "right" to procreate to the death. Even when they can't or don't want to care for the kids they make. Really, really sad.

 

[Mr. Hang Man]

Those are some intense feelings. But I don't know your story, mom probably deserves the criticism you gave her.

 

[CC123]

"A lot of people just shouldn't have children"
Amen to that
Be thankful for safe abortions
My Mom took me in for my first abortion to a doctor that had performed one for her previously.
Done in a safe and non-judgmental environment.

 

[Ruffian]

Can. I just say that when I saw the title of your post, I knew for sure I had found my tribe. I was already 95% sure, but you closed the deal!

 

[Manaaja]

My own mom suffers from some kind of weird bipolar-narcissism + she clearly has autism or asperger, really. Sometimes she buys me expensive gifts (a stupid 300€ mat that I didn't even want), sometimes she's like "That bottle of water costed 2€, so you now own me 500€!". Sometimes she will leave me in the middle of the woods to die alone (has happened a few times sadly, we went for a walk in the woods, I got lost, I shouted "I'm lost! Where are you mom?" and she yelled back "If you're not in the car in the next 5 seconds I'm leaving without you!") because I disagreed with her on something really minor. Sometimes when I'm sick and alone at my apartment she will bring me food and medicine for free everyday.

She doesn't understand why she can't call colored people names (she has said that non-white people don't have feelings) yet she will get a meltdown and scream if I wear a hat on a wrong day because "I'm hurting the neighbors feelings by wearing a hat", if I get physically assaulted on the streets she doesn't understand why I don't just go for a walk, if I hurt my leg and am literally disabled she will tell me that I should go ride a bicycle because she likes to ride bicycles.

And worst of all, I wasn't allowed to cry when I was a child. She'd always have a great meltdown and scream and namecall me because she's literally unable to understand feelings. She would always yell at me "Why do you cry?!" even when I was a 5 year old child. She's unable to see that people are individuals, she thinks that everyone thinks like her and acts like her, and when she discoverers that it's not true, she gets a meltdown instead and curses her child instead of growing as a person. And I was always forced to have a haircut identical to hers, I never got to choose my own hairstyle until I was like 13, and I still hate that. I hate bowlcuts!

I may have asperger, but thank god I'm still able to understand that other people are individuals with their own feelings and thoughts.

TLDR; Yeah, moms can be awful human beings. I'm sorry yours is horrible, and I'm sad that awful people are still allowed to breed.

 

[aneurysm]

This bitch is always humiliating and insulting and abusing me.
I hope she fucking dies in pain. Alas, I will be the one to die first and the only letter I will leave her is a letter telling her how much I hate her very being. Stupid retarded cunt. I didnt ask to be born.

the way you refer to your mother is so satisfying for some reason

 

[GeorgeJL]

"A lot of people just shouldn't have children"
Amen to that
Be thankful for safe abortions
My Mom took me in for my first abortion to a doctor that had performed one for her previously.
Done in a safe and non-judgmental environment.
Thankfully, Mom aborted everything after birthing me

It's called contraception, you know birth control and condoms etc. Society is evolving away from abortion. IMO abortion is a barbaric practice. And I use to be pro-choice.

This bitch is always humiliating and insulting and abusing me.
I hope she fucking dies in pain. Alas, I will be the one to die first and the only letter I will leave her is a letter telling her how much I hate her very being. Stupid retarded cunt. I didnt ask to be born.

I love my mom, I'm sorry you had such a shitty childhood. I hope you find your peace whether you live or exit life.

 

[LayNrot]

My mom's a narcissistic bitch

 

[Psilo]

Weird post, all this just to insult your own mother, some wished they had one. I don't know how she treats you, keep it to yourself. Threads like this are pointless.

 

[Ruffian]

Weird post, all this just to insult your own mother, some wished they had one. I don't know how she treats you, keep it to yourself. Threads like this are pointless.

I started to reply, but I forgot the #1 rule of debate: do not attempt to debate with someone you know will not change their thinking.

 

[Untitled]

Posts like this one, years ago, used to make me pretty angry. Probably because I worshipped my own mother who died very slowly and painfully as I cared for her. I'd have taken her place in a heartbeat and think about her every single day. But since then, I've reevaluated my position on obligations children have to their parents. Life is challenging, competitive, and for many very painful. Even when we have ways to make life less painful, we often choose not to. Yet still, many people make children just because it feels good or it seemed like a good idea at the time. Or worse, they don't really think about it at all. Kids don't ask to be born. But parents who can't protect those kids from a lot of life's hell make them anyway. A lot of people just shouldn't have children (or pets...). They only make life FAR more painful for them. But most people will defend their "right" to procreate to the death. Even when they can't or don't want to care for the kids they make. Really, really sad.

You're very lucky for having had a good mother. My mother is horrible. She would take me and my siblings to other men's houses and just leave us with their kids while she had sex with the other men (probably without my father knowing). She didn't breastfeed any of her children, or cook them food or whatever. And everything was about her, you could lose your right eye and she would just make your injury about her. When I asked her why she had children, she just told me that she felt an urge to do so at the time.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

You're very lucky for having had a good mother. My mother is horrible. She would take me and my siblings to other men's houses and just leave us with their kids while she had sex with the other men (probably without my father knowing). She didn't breastfeed any of her children, or cook them food or whatever. And everything was about her, you could lose your right eye and she would just make your injury about her. When I asked her why she had children, she just told me that she felt an urge to do so at the time.

I have no idea anymore what "good" is. My mother was absent my entire youth. I stayed alone at home overnight, terrified, while she worked from the time I was six. She raped me while she was talking on the phone with a friend when I was very young. A neighbor's teenaged son locked me in his house's bathroom and raped me when I was very young. I told my mom when I got home. She stood me in front of a mirror and beat me with a studded metal belt while insulting me and calling me a liar. I can't put into words how much her disbelief hurt. Other terrifying memories... I don't know why I still loved her so much and I don't want to think about it. Human affection is very messy. At least it seems so to me. Or maybe I'm just exceptionally stupid. I still would gladly have taken her place suffering and dying. And I think she would have had a MUCH better life without me. She just wasn't wise enough to realize that having a child, given her poverty of resources, would be hell.

I feel for you, man. I really, really do. That pain, at least for me, never goes away.

 

[AhG]

I honestly know this feeling of hatred. Mostly because my mother has always tried to be a "mom" but mostly has been a drunk friend. Always lashing out at me and then trying to take it all back the next day after I take care of her the night before. Never ending cycle.

 

[Untitled]

I have no idea anymore what "good" is. My mother was absent my entire youth. I stayed alone at home overnight, terrified, while she worked from the time I was six. She raped me while she was talking on the phone with a friend when I was very young. A neighbor's teenaged son locked me in his house's bathroom and raped me when I was very young. I told my mom when I got home. She stood me in front of a mirror and beat me with a studded metal belt while insulting me and calling me a liar. I can't put into words how much her disbelief hurt. Other terrifying memories... I don't know why I still loved her so much and I don't want to think about it. Human affection is very messy. At least it seems so to me. Or maybe I'm just exceptionally stupid. I still would gladly have taken her place suffering and dying. And I think she would have had a MUCH better life without me. She just wasn't wise enough to realize that having a child, given her poverty of resources, would be hell.

I feel for you, man. I really, really do. That pain, at least for me, never goes away.

Oh sorry. I wrongly thought that you cared for her because she was good to you. Those are truly horrible things you're describing. If you cared for her after all this, and even loved her, then you're definitely a better person than I am.

Anyway seeing how kindly you respond to most people here on the forum, I can definitely tell you are a good person, and you definitely don't deserve to be abused.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Oh sorry. I wrongly thought that you cared for her because she was good to you. Those are truly horrible things you're describing. If you cared for her after all this, and even loved her, then you're definitely a better person than I am.

Anyway seeing how kindly you respond to most people here on the forum, I can definitely tell you are a good person, and you definitely don't deserve to be abused.

That's really kind of you to say. I'm sure, though, I'm not a better person than you are. Have you ever done talk therapy or 1:1 CBT/DBT? Did they help? I used to see a psychiatrist at my university who was one of the kindest, gentlest people I've ever met. She talked to me instead of diagnosing me. I want to find out from other people who went through things like what we did if it matters to talk about it. If you're open to sharing more about what you've done as an adult to overcome the way your parents treated you, the neglect..., I'd really like to learn. Feel free to PM me. Thanks either way.

 

[Xaphous]

Not all of us are granted great parents, and family perhaps more than anyone else can complicate life in endless ways because of that. I think there should always be a place for venting frustration.

 

[Untitled]

That's really kind of you to say. I'm sure, though, I'm not a better person than you are. Have you ever done talk therapy or 1:1 CBT/DBT? Did they help? I used to see a psychiatrist at my university who was one of the kindest, gentlest people I've ever met. She talked to me instead of diagnosing me. I want to find out from other people who went through things like what we did if it matters to talk about it. If you're open to sharing more about what you've done as an adult to overcome the way your parents treated you, the neglect..., I'd really like to learn. Feel free to PM me. Thanks either way.

I've done a lot of talk therapy and it was never a good experience for me. I've never had a kind and gentle therapist like the one you describe. I'm glad you found someone like this.

I don't think I've ever met someone whom I truly thought was good and kind, maybe except my grandfather.

I've never gotten over my parents and I probably never will. I accept it. I just don't talk to them too often. The one thing I do that always cheers me up is going out to some secluded natural place. I have several nature reserves near me that I like to go to. I like to examine the plants and sometimes eat them if they are edible. I also like to examine the animals around. Where I live there are also many ancient ruins that are interesting to explore. My country is very rich with history (I'd rather not say which country that is), and every tiny piece of land probably belonged at one time and lost at another time to a whole lot of different people of different religions and ethnicity. This type of activity always makes me feel better.

 

[Ruffian]

I've done a lot of talk therapy and it was never a good experience for me. I've never had a kind and gentle therapist like the one you describe. I'm glad you found someone like this.

I don't think I've ever met someone whom I truly thought was good and kind, maybe except my grandfather.

I've never gotten over my parents and I probably never will. I accept it. I just don't talk to them too often. The one thing I do that always cheers me up is going out to some secluded natural place. I have several nature reserves near me that I like to go to. I like to examine the plants and sometimes eat them if they are edible. I also like to examine the animals around. Where I live there are also many ancient ruins that are interesting to explore. My country is very rich with history (I'd rather not say which country that is), and every tiny piece of land probably belonged at one time and lost at another time to a whole lot of different people of different religions and ethnicity. This type of activity always makes me feel better.

Wish I had somewhere like that!

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I've done a lot of talk therapy and it was never a good experience for me. I've never had a kind and gentle therapist like the one you describe. I'm glad you found someone like this.

I don't think I've ever met someone whom I truly thought was good and kind, maybe except my grandfather.

I've never gotten over my parents and I probably never will. I accept it. I just don't talk to them too often. The one thing I do that always cheers me up is going out to some secluded natural place. I have several nature reserves near me that I like to go to. I like to examine the plants and sometimes eat them if they are edible. I also like to examine the animals around. Where I live there are also many ancient ruins that are interesting to explore. My country is very rich with history (I'd rather not say which country that is), and every tiny piece of land probably belonged at one time and lost at another time to a whole lot of different people of different religions and ethnicity. This type of activity always makes me feel better.

You're right. I was lucky to have one good therapist. Thank you. I also agree with you on the "I don't think I've ever met someone...good" front. Of course, you guys here are exceptions to the rule.

I also agree with you that talking about trauma isn't helpful. For me it's like having a painful tumor in my chest and talking about how it makes me feel. I need someone to cut it out, not talk to me about it.

Lucky you that you have access to so much natural beauty. It sounds peaceful. Is it quiet? A colleague and I talked today (via virtual conference) about an article about rural England--how it's now as noisy as the cities thanks to all the heavy traffic, motorcycles, modified cars/trucks, ATVs... If you have access to quiet, too, you're very, very lucky.

I'm chatty, I know. This place is the only place I get to talk about anything other than work... One last thing, then: have you read about all the biomedical evidence linking growing up in and, separately, living (as adults) in green spaces--how this is associated with MUCH reduced disease risks? Again, kudos to you.

 

[Untitled]

You're right. I was lucky to have one good therapist. Thank you. I also agree with you on the "I don't think I've ever met someone...good" front. Of course, you guys here are exceptions to the rule.

I also agree with you that talking about trauma isn't helpful. For me it's like having a painful tumor in my chest and talking about how it makes me feel. I need someone to cut it out, not talk to me about it.

Lucky you that you have access to so much natural beauty. It sounds peaceful. Is it quiet? A colleague and I talked today (via virtual conference) about an article about rural England--how it's now as noisy as the cities thanks to all the heavy traffic, motorcycles, modified cars/trucks, ATVs... If you have access to quiet, too, you're very, very lucky.

I'm chatty, I know. This place is the only place I get to talk about anything other than work... One last thing, then: have you read about all the biomedical evidence linking growing up in and, separately, living (as adults) in green spaces--how this is associated with MUCH reduced disease risks? Again, kudos to you.

Feel free to chat with me, I enjoy it.

I have lived for about three years in a very green place, in a little village in the middle of the forest, and I worked as a farmer in an organic farm. It doesn't surprise me that green spaces are associated with health and well-being. The people in the village definitely looked healthy even in old age. They were also much kinder than the other citizens of my country.

Those three years when I lived in that village were very hard for me due to several problems I have faced (mainly with other people who have wronged me), but I didn't feel as rushed to commit suicide then as I do now. A little walk in the forest always cheered me up, and I just felt very much connected to the natural world around me. I've also come to know the area around me very well, and I would go several kilometers just for that one tree that I knew had the best fruits. You can never really feel alone in a natural surrounding that you know well. The animals and plants change all the time, and you somehow get intimately acquainted with several individual plants, animals, sites, or flocks of migratory birds, that you just feel connected to it, the same way you can feel connected to a real human being.

Yeah, I definitely think that much of the struggle of modern city-dwellers in life can be solved by going back to nature. This includes even diseases in my opinion.

Oh, and some places are quiet and some aren't. Where I live right now it's pretty hard to find quiet places. Even the nature reserves that I go to are close to highways or to cities. You can always hear cars and smell smog. The village was very quiet except maybe for the neighbors who liked to blast their horrible music or to shout frequently (they also didn't care much for nature, and would dump their non-biodegradable garbage in the forest).

 

[Cansado]

Eu respeito sua dor e sua história. Espero que as coisas melhorem para você.
I respect your pain and your story. I hope things get better for you.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

This bitch is always humiliating and insulting and abusing me.
I hope she fucking dies in pain. Alas, I will be the one to die first and the only letter I will leave her is a letter telling her how much I hate her very being. Stupid retarded cunt. I didnt ask to be born.

i feel the same. my parents treat me like a shit and like i'm stupid and mentally ill

 

[Final Escape]

I don't wish my mom death and suffering but I'm very disappointed about how I was treated when young and even thereafter. I've forgiven but I guess I don't care anymore because at this point I'm just trying to do damage control to avoid making my life even worse than it has been. Her abuse did do serious damage but I'm just trying to make peace with reality.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I don't wish my mom death and suffering but I'm very disappointed about how I was treated when young and even thereafter. I've forgiven but I guess I don't care anymore because at this point I'm just trying to do damage control to avoid making my life even worse than it has been. Her abuse did do serious damage but I'm just trying to make peace with reality.

Lots of respect to you for your maturity and pragmatism. No child should have to do damage control due to the way their parents treated them. Says so much about the way we become parents... Sorry.

 

[I am ___________]

Weird post, all this just to insult your own mother, some wished they had one. I don't know how she treats you, keep it to yourself. Threads like this are pointless.

You have no right to judge them. Some parents are pieces of shit that should die in the worst way possible , I should know because mine are. All my family are pieces of shit.

"Some people wish they had them." yeah and some people wished they were never born nor brong into this ugly desolate cespid of existence by those same exact people who should have never had children to begin with. This is why I can't stand people, especially stupid people. If I had the fucking button to erase my existence I would have pressed it at birth. The point of threads are to express one's inner thoughts and if possible recieve feedback. Your out of line saying keep it to yourself.