NSFW I found something but I can't tell if it's good or bad

[javie33]

I'm pretty active online on social media and stuff especially Twitter I was casually scrolling through and found and interesting hashtag about self harm mainly people posting themselves cutting really deep like making it a competition called #shtwt (please don't go to it if u are clean from sh or will get triggered with basically gore) I went into a rabbit hole of this hashtag by the first couple post I was rock hard I've always struggled with sh and seeing it on such a easily accessible site was weird I've watched gore but never something I could actually relate too I honestly jerked off for hours to this bc if been struggling to get hard with my porn addiction my previous thread explains it now idk if this is good or bad and I need some options does this make me a bad person let me know if ur interested in talking about this hashtag I think I'm obsessed ive been lonely for a while and it just made me feel like im not thr only one and also ive been clean from sh for about a year

 

[RolltheDie]

There are worse things to get off to...

 

[golta]

No, I don't think that makes you a bad person.A bad person would spread the information to other people to trigger them or to make the harm themselves.But this is a very hashtag that only harms to people so don't comment on them, spreading bad methods only spread suffering

 

[notevenhere]

I'm active on shtwt! we actually have other specific hashtags because normies got a hold of the #shtwt, kind of like how #edtwt has a specific hashtags only the community knows if you're active and inside it.

I'm from SEA, and my mutuals are often from China but I follow a few jp ones who cut so prettily, they turn it into an aesthetic. Like, they add filters and do video edits. I'm following a small account where her boyfriend licks the blood off after cutting, it was pretty shocking to see at first but I follow more extreme individuals like I've seen pretty girls cut their tongue with razor blades or fill a glass with their own blood. it's really insane what chinese and japanese girls can post online. it makes me a bit inferior cos i only posts cutting videos of me in cosplay (specifically amechan from needy girl overdose because she shs in canon)

but sorry, i don't think i can talk much more beyond this. i don't want to judge you for getting off to the videos, i don't think you're a bad person. i and several others have videos on twt where we're also just in our underwear/state of undress while showing off our cuts and weight (coincided with #edtwt) so i can see why people will find it sexually arousing? but personally, i feel weird about it. I'm not judging the fact you got off to it. having porn addiction sucks. i also just fap like 3 times a day when I'm feeling really suicidal to distract myself from killing myself so I get it.

maybe try looking up eroguro so you won't feel as bad as getting off to real women? at least, with eroguro, there's no real people being harmed and it's all fiction. not that I think the people you're watching isn't already harmed. i mean, we're all ALREADY mutilating our bodies. idk. it's pretty messed up what the mind can do to you but you just have to remember some of your actions can just be a form of trauma response and it's out of your control. it's a pretty hard topic to talk about.

 

[Havnis]

It depends on your thoughts, like what do you feel or think when you watch those images? do you enjoy seeing other people pain and suffering? Do you wish to cause pain? Or are you putting yourself in their shoes? All those questions are important to assess yourself.

 

[javie33]

It depends on your thoughts, like what do you feel or think when you watch those images? do you enjoy seeing other people pain and suffering? Do you wish to cause pain? Or are you putting yourself in their shoes? All those questions are important to assess yourself.

I'm honestly not to sure what I'm thinking tbh at first I thought it was the idea that someone could cut for me bc of me but I don't think that's quite right tho imma try to figure this out

I'm active on shtwt! we actually have other specific hashtags because normies got a hold of the #shtwt, kind of like how #edtwt has a specific hashtags only the community knows if you're active and inside it.

I'm from SEA, and my mutuals are often from China but I follow a few jp ones who cut so prettily, they turn it into an aesthetic. Like, they add filters and do video edits. I'm following a small account where her boyfriend licks the blood off after cutting, it was pretty shocking to see at first but I follow more extreme individuals like I've seen pretty girls cut their tongue with razor blades or fill a glass with their own blood. it's really insane what chinese and japanese girls can post online. it makes me a bit inferior cos i only posts cutting videos of me in cosplay (specifically amechan from needy girl overdose because she shs in canon)

but sorry, i don't think i can talk much more beyond this. i don't want to judge you for getting off to the videos, i don't think you're a bad person. i and several others have videos on twt where we're also just in our underwear/state of undress while showing off our cuts and weight (coincided with #edtwt) so i can see why people will find it sexually arousing? but personally, i feel weird about it. I'm not judging the fact you got off to it. having porn addiction sucks. i also just fap like 3 times a day when I'm feeling really suicidal to distract myself from killing myself so I get it.

maybe try looking up eroguro so you won't feel as bad as getting off to real women? at least, with eroguro, there's no real people being harmed and it's all fiction. not that I think the people you're watching isn't already harmed. i mean, we're all ALREADY mutilating our bodies. idk. it's pretty messed up what the mind can do to you but you just have to remember some of your actions can just be a form of trauma response and it's out of your control. it's a pretty hard topic to talk about.

I read eroguro pretty often can't get hard from it anymore thx for the suggestion tho I think that last one that worked was mai-chans daily life

But so interesting that someone active in shtwt replied thanks for your insight