prettyclam
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- Nov 29, 2024
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Tiktok blessed me with the best video ever today. It showed a bridge in my state with a good drop protected by a single rope.
Why haven't I thought of this before? I always thought I had to jump from buildings despite half of my state being a mountain range. There's probably other peaks to jump from, but I'm choosing this bridge because fate has chosen it for me.
The downside is that its 4 hours away. I've never drove far before. I don't have my own car either so my mom's will be taken. Sorry in advance to my mom.
I need to ctb before December. I don't want to experience Christmas. I don't want to experience the anniversary of my failed attempt. I don't want to live into January which is when I'll turn 20. Only bad things will come if I continue living. I could even be homeless before then.
However, its not like I 100% want to die. I'm like 99% suicidal, 1% hanging on to the hope that I can live a normal life with my girl. My future is bleak though. Theres no other choices than this.
I'll make a post whenever my time comes. I still need a time to plan. I'm feeling hopeful yet afraid. Finally I've found a way out
(Edit: changed the bridge elevation cuz I lowkey exposed my location but know that the height is tall enough to jump from)
Why haven't I thought of this before? I always thought I had to jump from buildings despite half of my state being a mountain range. There's probably other peaks to jump from, but I'm choosing this bridge because fate has chosen it for me.
The downside is that its 4 hours away. I've never drove far before. I don't have my own car either so my mom's will be taken. Sorry in advance to my mom.
I need to ctb before December. I don't want to experience Christmas. I don't want to experience the anniversary of my failed attempt. I don't want to live into January which is when I'll turn 20. Only bad things will come if I continue living. I could even be homeless before then.
However, its not like I 100% want to die. I'm like 99% suicidal, 1% hanging on to the hope that I can live a normal life with my girl. My future is bleak though. Theres no other choices than this.
I'll make a post whenever my time comes. I still need a time to plan. I'm feeling hopeful yet afraid. Finally I've found a way out
(Edit: changed the bridge elevation cuz I lowkey exposed my location but know that the height is tall enough to jump from)
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whether that be through CTBing, reconciling with your girl, or finding your happiness in an alternative way. I'd definitely take some binge-worthy food and some heavy tunes with you on that 4-hour ride - make it something you'll never forget. Go out happy if you're going out.
Its not that tall but it's still tall enough for a jump judging from the information I've gathered on here
