I finally got my SN + Probarly my last post

[imjusttired]

Okay so hi! I've been searching for a looong time for SN that I could order to the netherlands. And I succeeded finally. The SN is in my room right now. Maybe it sounds weird but i'm so happy and relieved. I've been trying to get it for 2 freaking years. I can finally end my misery. I won't do it tonight cause I have to wait for the capsules to arrive so I can fill them and will not have to taste the SN cause I go bad on disgusting tastes. I don't have meta so I'm scared of vomiting. I know you probarly still vomit with meta but like at least your body will absorb it quicker. Its a weird thought that I may die this week. Im happy, anxious and I feel bad about doing it to people close to me. But I've been fighting for so freaking long and I'm so tired. Sooo fucking tired. I'm just so done with my life. Okay so I just needed to tell you guys this because I can't tell anyone else and thats kinda lonely. I still don't wanne die alone. I want people to know. But they can't know because they will stop me. Soo yeah it would be nice if someone commented something on my post. This might be my last post. It probarly is. Soo see you on the other side!

 

[Odwin]

Funny I ordered SN from the Netherlands yesterday.

Anyways I wish you good luck.

 

[Carrotcake]

Sending you lots of love

 

[Makko]

Congratulations.

 

[hfdepression30]

*hug*

 

[HopelessFight]

I'm sorry it has come to this. Don't feel pressured, now you have the SN you can do it anytime - if you need more time to think, take it. Whatever you choose, I hope you find peace.

Putting it in capsules might make the process go slower and you'll have to swallow lots of these capsules to ingest 25g. Are you sure this is the way you want to take SN?

 

[WornOutLife]

It's a shame to hear this.
If this happens to be your last post, let me wish a peaceful journey and lots of love.
I'm sorry life has failed you.

 

[popcorn]

25g in capsules is at best going to be like 50 of them, that is a lot and will significantly slow down absorption, likely they could be vomited up.

best wishes and positive vibes to you anyways, ive just ordered mine :)

 

[aminend]

I hope all things go ahead well and peaceful for u

 

[HowNowBrownCow]

safe travels. hope you find peace on the other side.

 

[yeahwellso]

Funny I ordered SN from the Netherlands yesterday.

Anyways I wish you good luck.

How? The substance seems so locked down EU-wide.

 

[Odwin]

How? The substance seems so locked down EU-wide.

It is? I just Googled SN and "buy" and it was like the 7th hit. The first 6 I needed like a proof of something and the 7th sold it to everyone if it was less than 500g.

 

[justanotherstar]

I'm sorry it has come to this but I understand your relief. I know when I received my SN it felt really weird. It was a mixture of happiness and relief and strangely it helped me carry on longer as I knew I could end it all at any time if things got too bad. If this is your last post then I hope you find your peace but know the SS family is here if you change your mind. Travel well my friend

 

[wait.what]

I'm sorry that things have come to this for you. I think most of us would choose to live if we saw any bearable path forward, but sometimes there isn't one. I get what you're saying about feeling totally worn out. I feel similarly a lot of the time. I hope peace awaits you, no matter what you decide.

 

[lago]

If you succeed, congratulations.
If not, there is always more time, and welcome back to spend time with us.

 

[OhBother]

I've been distant and emotionless for a while until I found this site. Now whenever I see a post like yours, it makes me feel genuinely happy. It's almost if it feels like I just received it. And I don't see it as you're leaving, but more like you finally won tickets for a vacation to take you far away from the curse called life. Safe travels and I hope all goes accordingly. From a struggling supporter a country over.

 

[Lost Magic]

Safe travels. I hope you find peace now.