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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I can't get over it how I failed I wish I had CTB then
 
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symphony

surving hour-by-hour
Mar 12, 2022
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I relate so strongly. I used to do so well as a student - even though I was depressed, I was achieving at my potential and had a future ahead of me. Now that's all gone. Freshman year, I lived on the top story of a tall building with an external stairwell. I should have gone through with my plan to jump that one Wednesday evening when I had the chance. It would have prevented so much further suffering. But it turns out I'm a fucking coward.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I relate so strongly. I used to do so well as a student - even though I was depressed, I was achieving at my potential and had a future ahead of me. Now that's all gone. Freshman year, I lived on the top story of a tall building with an external stairwell. I should have gone through with my plan to jump that one Wednesday evening when I had the chance. It would have prevented so much further suffering. But it turns out I'm a fucking coward.
How are you doing now? Still depressed I presume. Did you go back to Uni or?
 
onlyanimalsaregood

onlyanimalsaregood

Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
Mar 11, 2022
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You can't go back study and try again?
 
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symphony

surving hour-by-hour
Mar 12, 2022
779
How are you doing now? Still depressed I presume. Did you go back to Uni or?
Yeah... unfortunately the depression is worse than ever. I highly doubt I'm functional enough to handle school at this point. I'm currently trying to decide between going back next year or just getting a job... if I even live that long.
 
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onlyanimalsaregood

Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
Mar 11, 2022
1,329
I been depressed for so long I don't even know if I can function in a classroom
I think it's worth a try. I was really at rock bottom but since I started taking medication it has helped me and I have been trying to turn my life around. I don't know if you have ever tried medication.
Yeah... unfortunately the depression is worse than ever. I highly doubt I'm functional enough to handle school at this point. I'm currently trying to decide between going back next year or just getting a job... if I even live that long.
I'm so sorry you feel this way :/ Either option is not bad, as long as you don't start getting stuck at home and doing nothing 24/7 for a long time. That just makes it worse, I speak from experience.
 

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