I FEEL THE HORRIBLE SENSATION OF HAVING NO ONE TO TALK TO ON THE PHONE

[Crematoryy]

Yes... the person I loved doesn't love me. I talk to her even though I don't feel like it. Just because I have no better option. Just so I'm not alone. But she doesn't ask how I'm really feeling, she doesn't care, she doesn't want to hear what I feel. I keep silent, I suffer in silence, because I'm alone. I'm going to leave the house while I write this post because I have a catatonic feeling of general malaise.

I thought I could consider the person I considered closest to me; the one who knew my inner self best. I'm wrong, there's only loneliness. The closest person to me is this SASU forum where I don't even remember the usernames.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

One might even say, you have no mouth, and you must scream

 

[cbtvvxxvvv]

Yes... the person I loved doesn't love me. I talk to her even though I don't feel like it. Just because I have no better option. Just so I'm not alone. But she doesn't ask how I'm really feeling, she doesn't care, she doesn't want to hear what I feel. I keep silent, I suffer in silence, because I'm alone. I'm going to leave the house while I write this post because I have a catatonic feeling of general malaise.

I thought I could consider the person I considered closest to me; the one who knew my inner self best. I'm wrong, there's only loneliness. The closest person to me is this SASU forum where I don't even remember the usernames.

know how you feel. its exhausting maintaining friendships, especially with someone who truly may not care how you feel or what you have going on. there are more out there though that do and you will find them! <3

 

[bugbugbug]

This is exactly how I feel, they promised that they would be as kind as possible when leaving me and ended up breaking up with me over the phone. I go in between hating them, loving them, and feeling absolutely nothing at all. It truly is a I have no mouth but I must scream feeling (that story never fails to make me cry)

 

[Crematoryy]

know how you feel. its exhausting maintaining friendships, especially with someone who truly may not care how you feel or what you have going on. there are more out there though that do and you will find them! <3

Thank you so much, that's exactly what I needed to hear. I'm tired, I just got home while walking lost in the street at night. I think about 2 hours have passed since I posted...?

This is exactly how I feel, they promised that they would be as kind as possible when leaving me and ended up breaking up with me over the phone. I go in between hating them, loving them, and feeling absolutely nothing at all. It truly is a I have no mouth but I must scream feeling (that story never fails to make me cry)

These people are cowards when they decide to end things. They don't even do it in person; they don't even bother to expose themselves. Indifference from those we love hurts more than a gunshot.

 

[fishperson]

Yes... the person I loved doesn't love me. I talk to her even though I don't feel like it. Just because I have no better option. Just so I'm not alone. But she doesn't ask how I'm really feeling, she doesn't care, she doesn't want to hear what I feel. I keep silent, I suffer in silence, because I'm alone. I'm going to leave the house while I write this post because I have a catatonic feeling of general malaise.

I thought I could consider the person I considered closest to me; the one who knew my inner self best. I'm wrong, there's only loneliness. The closest person to me is this SASU forum where I don't even remember the usernames.

Leme guess u got attached to someone that had other people in their life while u only had them?

 

[Crematoryy]

Leme guess u got attached to someone that had other people in their life while u only had them?

exactly

 

[fishperson]

exactly

U have it better than me , i didnt know Sasu existed 3 years ago.
Its probably the worst experience ever. U r not alone im sry u have to go through this

 

[pinapellicer]

Leme guess u got attached to someone that had other people in their life while u only had them?

Is this sort of dynamic always doomed to failure? It seems impossible to escape it

 

[fishperson]

Is this sort of dynamic always doomed to failure? It seems impossible to escape it

The only way for it not to fail , is if u have other people too. Or if they only have u.
It needs to be symmetrical situation