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May 5, 2026
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I feel so damn weak. Everything, even the most miniscule things that don't go my way just make me cry and want to kill myself even more. Every day I cry so much. It doesn't change anything. Why can't I stop crying? Why am I so fucking pathetic? Why can't I handle anything???

It's like I'm in an endless cycle of hell. I can't bring myself to do anything anymore. My parents ridicule me nearly every time I cry and it hurts so badly, I don't even know how to put it into words. I could be bawling my eyes out and they could just be sitting right in front of me, saying that I'm just "putting on an act". I get more weak and tired of life every passing day. I hate myself because I cry so much. I hate myself because I'm so pathetic. And that cycle just repeats and I start to grow a deeper hatred for myself more and more. The two things I desire the most now is crying in my bed and ending myself. I can't even escape this life. I have nothing. I just have to sit and let everything happen as I grow more miserable.

I am definitely going to CTB soon.
 
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Jan 13, 2025
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I'm so sorry you feel this way. Also having such parents sounds horrible, I have similar experience :(
 
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Same..the smallest bad things make me severely depressed... social media doesn't help ...
 
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