I feel so lonely.

[snoot]

I'm a bit drunk and I feel so silly. I made a post last week about telling someone how I felt and how I regret it so much.
I actually started feeling a bit better the last few days, I've been trying to carry on with life as usual.
Anyway turns out I'm being used by this person. I feel silly that things like heartbreak are what's pushing me to ctb. But I really can't help the way I feel.
I'm so tired of being strong. I'm so tired of holding on, of holding myself afloat because I know nobody else will. I just don't want to be strong anymore, my heart is so heavy and I don't want to carry it anymore.

 

[Miss_Takes]

Its ok to 'feel' and its ok to be heartbroken and feel that sadness and loss.

Being strong all the time IS exhausting. Being alone IS exhausting.

 

[Ghost2211]

Heartbreak is awful, and your feelings are valid. Being sad too long really is exhausting. We are here with you.

 

[Butterflyshadow]

I'm a bit drunk and I feel so silly. I made a post last week about telling someone how I felt and how I regret it so much.
I actually started feeling a bit better the last few days, I've been trying to carry on with life as usual.
Anyway turns out I'm being used by this person. I feel silly that things like heartbreak are what's pushing me to ctb. But I really can't help the way I feel.
I'm so tired of being strong. I'm so tired of holding on, of holding myself afloat because I know nobody else will. I just don't want to be strong anymore, my heart is so heavy and I don't want to carry it

I'm a bit drunk and I feel so silly. I made a post last week about telling someone how I felt and how I regret it so much.
I actually started feeling a bit better the last few days, I've been trying to carry on with life as usual.
Anyway turns out I'm being used by this person. I feel silly that things like heartbreak are what's pushing me to ctb. But I really can't help the way I feel.
I'm so tired of being strong. I'm so tired of holding on, of holding myself afloat because I know nobody else will. I just don't want to be strong anymore, my heart is so heavy and I don't want to carry it anymore.

I feel so alone too after my ex left me... it is really painfull.. it is not easy to be motivated..

 

[Harleyyy]

I feel the same way. Here's a little virtual hug for you *hugs* <3

 

[Lotus]

I do too. It's just too much to bear.

 

[drwt]

If your main reason of wanting to die is heartache from love then I can tell you that it does get better.

Right after my gf died I felt like killing myself every hour, my mind was in a crazy state. And I had people tell me that it will get better, but I didn't really listen... but it does get better. Now it's 3 months later and life is still shit but the emotional difference is night and day.

 

[Bigpink]

It's about grieving and eventual healing.

 

[Deleted member 94]

You're not alone, you will find many of us are in the same boat.

Thankfully I don't know people outside of my family and I meet them every so often so I don't have to wear a mask all the time.

 

[Sherri]

It is exhausting I agree, it's like that boat like you mentioned that is so hard to keep afloat most of the times we try to scoop water out, but more water comes in. Sending you a hug.