Venting I feel so horrible, things are getting bad again

[imcurious]

I don't usually post on the forums but today feels horrible. I feel like a wound that never fully heals whose bandaid was ripped off with no warning. And now everything feels horrible, and I feel annoying to everyone, everything and everyone in my life is not worth living for. I want to die so badly because nothing else will shake off that tight, closing feeling in my throat. Nothing else like CTB will replace how insignificant I feel everyday, in work, in friendship, in my relationships. It's like what's the point if I'm replaceable, and there are millions of individuals who arent plagued by sadness who could fill my role in peoples lives better than I ever could.

It just hurts so bad to not know what the purpose of my life is supposed to be. It just feels like I was created to feel deep sadness and nothing else.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really dreadful and tiring what you have to go through, but anyway best wishes, I get that it's awful when existing just gets worse.