I've always felt I could fall back on hanging if need be, but from accounts on here, full suspension hanging is about the most painful thing ever. I've already tried partial and I can't pass out plus the SI is too hard to overcome. I was set on full suspension as my method but am scared to death of the pain and the possibility of crushing my windpipe and suffocating consciously for minutes. Lord...
I just ordered SN and meto but with my emetophobia (fear of vomiting), that method might be even harder than hanging...hence why I avoided all poison/overdose methods in the first place this whole time.
I contacted A and he might be able to get me nembutal, but again, vomiting is a possibility...plus it's $750 which is ridiculous. If there was no chance of vomiting, I'd probably buy it. But I don't know if I can swallow something that will make my body want to force it back up..
Firearms were my second option after hanging but I never got one. I just don't know where I'd hide it in my home, living with two parents who have confiscated my well hidden ropes twice in the past....(now I have no rope either but it's about $15 and a trip to the home depot so that's not really a big deal but again, the full suspension hanging pain is a huge problem..)
God, what do I do? I need to get out of here, honest, I'm in hell.. Can I use an air duster and make myself pass out before I hang? Would padding successfully compress the carotid artery/reduce the pain and make me pass out more quickly? Do most people vomit when they take SN or not? (my SN is on its way so I might be taking this if there's a good chance I won't vom.) I ordered the metoclopramide and that's on its way as well, so with both of those things?
Sorry guys I'm just really desperate to get out of here and feel absolutely trapped and fucked. The torture of living is too much, I need any sort of advice you can give....
I just ordered SN and meto but with my emetophobia (fear of vomiting), that method might be even harder than hanging...hence why I avoided all poison/overdose methods in the first place this whole time.
I contacted A and he might be able to get me nembutal, but again, vomiting is a possibility...plus it's $750 which is ridiculous. If there was no chance of vomiting, I'd probably buy it. But I don't know if I can swallow something that will make my body want to force it back up..
Firearms were my second option after hanging but I never got one. I just don't know where I'd hide it in my home, living with two parents who have confiscated my well hidden ropes twice in the past....(now I have no rope either but it's about $15 and a trip to the home depot so that's not really a big deal but again, the full suspension hanging pain is a huge problem..)
God, what do I do? I need to get out of here, honest, I'm in hell.. Can I use an air duster and make myself pass out before I hang? Would padding successfully compress the carotid artery/reduce the pain and make me pass out more quickly? Do most people vomit when they take SN or not? (my SN is on its way so I might be taking this if there's a good chance I won't vom.) I ordered the metoclopramide and that's on its way as well, so with both of those things?
Sorry guys I'm just really desperate to get out of here and feel absolutely trapped and fucked. The torture of living is too much, I need any sort of advice you can give....
