I feel so freaking guilty 😞

[mekhi]

I browse for affordable firearms whilst on the phone with my therapist.
I smile to my loved ones whilst covering rope indents on my neck.
I discuss plans for my 20th birthday, knowing I'll forever be 19.
Months left, turns into weeks left which turned into days left of me dreading life yet pretending I plan to stay.
Living a double life. The guilt is eating me alive

 

[seigfried]

I browse for affordable firearms whilst on the phone with my therapist.
I smile to my loved ones whilst covering rope indents on my neck.
I discuss plans for my 20th birthday, knowing I'll forever be 19.
Months left, turns into weeks left which turned into days left of me dreading life yet pretending I plan to stay.
Living a double life. The guilt is eating me alive

never feel guilty for how you feel. every living being lives has its own universe and outlook on life. feel angry, feel depressed but never ever feel guilty for feeling how you feel.