Venting I feel mentally exhausted in this "fight" in my head

[sweetgirl666]

I feel such a bad feeling of emptiness, seeing my old school friends at college moving on with their lives and me here, stuck in this limbo of anxiety and sadness is so frustrating, sometimes I'm determined to practice CTB but this voice keeps echoing in my head saying that maybe all this will get better but then I think about everything I've been through, I can't even get a mediocre job in a supermarket, I feel enormous hatred for myself and I just want to put an end to this once and for all.

 

[Life]

I feel empty empty to just today I slept like 30+ hours in the last 2 days I try to ignore my loneliness and it always comes back stronger. I don't know what to do about it I hate this feeling I'm a failure.