i feel lonely, there's nothing i can do about it.

[EndlessRage]

I've lost all the people who i called friends once, maybe i am just a terrible person who no one wants to be around. Whatever they ask of me i did a lot for my friends i got them things, gave them money when they were in need so i feel used as well. I have no social life, no friends. There's nothing i can do to fix this i feel so bad everyone leaves and dumps you. I guess in the end you only have yourself i have to adapt to the loneliness to stop all the hurt, i do not even go outside anymore and i am not an introverted person either, i am good at making conversations and being extroverted but that hasn't brought me a single best friend, they call you their best friend once and throw slurs at you the next day and you wonder about it, blaming yourself.
Maybe it is my own fault, my mind is not capable of keeping friends.