LilGhost
Shark
- Apr 8, 2026
- 87
Why people can't just care? I'll admit. I'm jealous. I'm jealous of those who have good parents. Of those with observant friends. Of those who feels loved.
Ig im an unlovable being. I thought if I'll be showing my love openly, if I'd be taking care of people around me. They'd do same. I'll ask my friends: how are you. They will answer but not ask how am I back. I'm not taking care of them only for them to take care of me. But I just want to be loved as much as I love people. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why everyone around me deserves to be loved except for me? Why do I have to die alone. Why no one cared for me for the fucking entire month of me planning to leave? I've dropped enough hints for people to pick up if they care. I don't want to tell them: this is the end, as then they'd be feeling entitled to help.
I just want to be loved as much as I love people. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing wrong. I don't know. I don't feel like a human. I just want to be gone. I feel so empty. Of course my friends will never know this tho. They'll think I was okay. They'll think I left with peace. I don't think I will.
I gotta write a friendship break up text rn. So they won't suffer. I hate that even with my death, I put them first. But that's the right thing to do. I don't regret being friends with them or hate them. I know they don't do this all malicious, I am just sad
Ig im an unlovable being. I thought if I'll be showing my love openly, if I'd be taking care of people around me. They'd do same. I'll ask my friends: how are you. They will answer but not ask how am I back. I'm not taking care of them only for them to take care of me. But I just want to be loved as much as I love people. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why everyone around me deserves to be loved except for me? Why do I have to die alone. Why no one cared for me for the fucking entire month of me planning to leave? I've dropped enough hints for people to pick up if they care. I don't want to tell them: this is the end, as then they'd be feeling entitled to help.
I just want to be loved as much as I love people. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing wrong. I don't know. I don't feel like a human. I just want to be gone. I feel so empty. Of course my friends will never know this tho. They'll think I was okay. They'll think I left with peace. I don't think I will.
I gotta write a friendship break up text rn. So they won't suffer. I hate that even with my death, I put them first. But that's the right thing to do. I don't regret being friends with them or hate them. I know they don't do this all malicious, I am just sad
