i feel like something is stopping me

[iwannaendmylife]

i feel like something is stopping me from doing CTB. I did the completely stupid thing to tell my best friend that I SH and now she is all over me trying to stor me every time and i feel like shit. But the problem here is that nothing is actually stopping me from CTB, I hve awful parents that dont care about me and abuse me, people thing i have lost my mind, i am diagnosed with OCD, ADHD, depression, ED and i feel like there is a glass separating me from everyone else. It's not worth living anymore everything sucks and i just want to die but something is holding me i have had so many opportunities. I dont know what to do

 

[Suicidal_manlet]

I have the same problem

 

[ADBoy777]

I feel u, life sucks.
I think you should try to understand where that comes from, Is it SI or maybe it's some part in you that not completely accepts the idea of ctb

Had the same problem tho it took me some years to convert the ctb from a dream to a plan.
I wish you find peace